Back Love and Other Lies
Chapters (61)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Imagine a girl
  4. Prologue
  5. The Foreigner
  6. One
  7. Two
  8. Three
  9. Four
  10. Five
  11. The Skeptic
  12. Six
  13. Seven
  14. Eight
  15. Nine
  16. Ten
  17. Eleven
  18. Twelve
  19. Thirteen
  20. Fourteen
  21. Fifteen
  22. Sixteen
  23. Seventeen
  24. Eighteen
  25. Nineteen
  26. Twenty
  27. Twenty-One
  28. Twenty-Two
  29. Twenty-Three
  30. The Spectator
  31. Twenty-Four
  32. Twenty-Five
  33. Twenty-Six
  34. Twenty-Seven
  35. Twenty-Eight
  36. Twenty-Nine
  37. The Assassin
  38. Thirty
  39. Thirty-One
  40. Thirty-Two
  41. Thirty-Three
  42. Thirty-Four
  43. Thirty-Five
  44. Thirty-Six
  45. Thirty-Seven
  46. Thirty-Eight
  47. Thirty-Nine
  48. Forty
  49. Forty-One
  50. The Hunter
  51. Forty-Two
  52. Forty-Three
  53. Forty-Four
  54. Forty-Five
  55. Forty-Six
  56. Forty-Seven
  57. Imagine a girl
  58. Acknowledgments
  59. About the Author
  60. Also by Ben McPherson
  61. About the Publisher

“She was so painfully nervous, so I went up with her. The elevator barely had room for two people and smelled strongly of sweat, and we took it all the way to the twelfth floor, and when we got up there the walkway was slick with ice and the guardrails were low, and Licia got worried that I was going to fall, and she very sweetly held my hand, and we walked slowly up to this plain unmarked door. And from the inside there was just this music. The most beautiful melody, Cal: twenty voices—thirty, maybe—all singing in unison. And she turned to me and thanked me for not being weird about her coming here and asked me if I’d be okay getting back to the car. I called her my sweet child. And then the door opened, and there was this girl with white-blond hair wearing these ugly clumpy shoes, and she smiled the most beautiful smile and asked if she was Alicia Curtis. And Licia nodded, and let go of my hand, and began to walk across the threshold, and the girl asked if I wanted to join them. And I looked at Licia, and I could see what she was thinking. You know, No, Mum, please don’t, so I went downstairs to wait.”

The woman on-screen was ranting now. Her Norwegian accent got stronger by the second: “We need to look away for a moment from the obvious crimes committed by the Andersens because these crimes are a distraction from their actual message. And that message is that people in Europe are tired of their homelands being a dumping ground for the cultural detritus of Africa and the Middle East.”

“God,” I said, “this is chilling. What are they doing, interviewing her? What can she usefully tell us about Garden Island?”

“She’s from a free speech think tank.”

“Free speech?”

“She makes a living winding up people like you, Cal. She’s a provocateur, and she’ll be finished soon. Can you please focus on what I’m trying to tell you? Because I was sitting there with the engine on and the heater on high, and the snow was falling all around, and the apartment building was beautiful in the snow. And when Licia returned to the car we drove quietly along the highway, and she was singing to herself under her breath, but she was shot through with excitement. So I asked her how it went and she said, “I wish you could know the happiness that true faith can bring, Mum.” And it was like the most perfect moment. Except . . .” Elsa was shaking her head, biting back tears.

“Except what?”

“What if the island was her opportunity to get away from us? What if Licia actually wanted out?”

I reached out a hand, drew Elsa to me. “She was happy with her life.”

“Was she?”

“Wasn’t she?”

“I guess I always thought so.”