Back Love and Other Lies
Chapters (61)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Imagine a girl
  4. Prologue
  5. The Foreigner
  6. One
  7. Two
  8. Three
  9. Four
  10. Five
  11. The Skeptic
  12. Six
  13. Seven
  14. Eight
  15. Nine
  16. Ten
  17. Eleven
  18. Twelve
  19. Thirteen
  20. Fourteen
  21. Fifteen
  22. Sixteen
  23. Seventeen
  24. Eighteen
  25. Nineteen
  26. Twenty
  27. Twenty-One
  28. Twenty-Two
  29. Twenty-Three
  30. The Spectator
  31. Twenty-Four
  32. Twenty-Five
  33. Twenty-Six
  34. Twenty-Seven
  35. Twenty-Eight
  36. Twenty-Nine
  37. The Assassin
  38. Thirty
  39. Thirty-One
  40. Thirty-Two
  41. Thirty-Three
  42. Thirty-Four
  43. Thirty-Five
  44. Thirty-Six
  45. Thirty-Seven
  46. Thirty-Eight
  47. Thirty-Nine
  48. Forty
  49. Forty-One
  50. The Hunter
  51. Forty-Two
  52. Forty-Three
  53. Forty-Four
  54. Forty-Five
  55. Forty-Six
  56. Forty-Seven
  57. Imagine a girl
  58. Acknowledgments
  59. About the Author
  60. Also by Ben McPherson
  61. About the Publisher

He nodded at the men in the police cars. “You don’t bring them ashore somewhere crowded. Things could have got out of hand. No one’s following protocol.”

“So those men . . . ?” Again I couldn’t finish the thought.

“Yeah,” he said quietly. “This is bad, Cal.”

I swallowed down my fear.

I nodded. “Wait . . .” I reached into my pocket, pulled from my wallet a strip of passport photos that Licia had taken and never used, folded at the middle. I had rescued them from the trash, carried them with me without her knowing. I held out the strip of pictures to Edvard.

“These will help,” he said. He took a paper clip and attached them to our form, added the form to the top of the pile in his hand.

“You’ll tell me?” I said. “When you know something?”

His look told me not to expect too much.

Another boat, closing fast.

Behind, around, voices murmured, then fell silent. Paramedics opened ambulance doors, unloaded equipment onto the slipway, waited. The boat was closer. I searched for Licia’s face, but Licia was not there.

Elsa knew it too.

Licia is not here.

Parents stepped forward, reached out, held to them their boys, their girls as they stumbled forward from the boat. Some drew their children gently from the scene and away. Others knelt beside gurneys, ruffled hair, kissed foreheads and backs of hands. Beside them, nimble fingers found veins, attached cannulas, fitted monitors. These sons, these daughters: among us again now, but changed.

Water lapped. Wood strained against wood. Gurneys slid into ambulances, doors slammed, motors started. Around us, among us, newspeople spoke hushed words into shielded microphones. Ambulances began drifting up the rise, silent, blue lights flashing. We forced ourselves to turn to face the island. Too early for despair, too late for hope.

Down by the slipway children were standing in small groups, confused, waiting for parents who had not yet arrived.

A hand pressed gently against my back, another placed a coffee cup into my hand. I could not see Elsa.

“Here.” An arm in a gray sleeve, steadying me, so that I might not spill the coffee.

“Thank you,” I murmured. That small unbearable kindness: I looked only at the hand that offered it, afraid that I would give myself away if my eye met the eye of this stranger.

“Be assured that all will be well.” Words spoken softly, in accented English, the man’s mouth by my ear.

I glanced upward, saw a shock of black hair, a gray vestment.

You can’t know that all will be well, I thought. But there was kindness in the man’s eyes. I nodded and thanked him for the coffee.

Farther down the slipway I saw Elsa, staring out across the fjord. A new boat was crossing the mirror-flat water. A fresh wave of ambulances was approaching from the rise. All else was silence.

When I looked around again the priest was gone.