Back Love and Other Lies
Chapters (61)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Imagine a girl
  4. Prologue
  5. The Foreigner
  6. One
  7. Two
  8. Three
  9. Four
  10. Five
  11. The Skeptic
  12. Six
  13. Seven
  14. Eight
  15. Nine
  16. Ten
  17. Eleven
  18. Twelve
  19. Thirteen
  20. Fourteen
  21. Fifteen
  22. Sixteen
  23. Seventeen
  24. Eighteen
  25. Nineteen
  26. Twenty
  27. Twenty-One
  28. Twenty-Two
  29. Twenty-Three
  30. The Spectator
  31. Twenty-Four
  32. Twenty-Five
  33. Twenty-Six
  34. Twenty-Seven
  35. Twenty-Eight
  36. Twenty-Nine
  37. The Assassin
  38. Thirty
  39. Thirty-One
  40. Thirty-Two
  41. Thirty-Three
  42. Thirty-Four
  43. Thirty-Five
  44. Thirty-Six
  45. Thirty-Seven
  46. Thirty-Eight
  47. Thirty-Nine
  48. Forty
  49. Forty-One
  50. The Hunter
  51. Forty-Two
  52. Forty-Three
  53. Forty-Four
  54. Forty-Five
  55. Forty-Six
  56. Forty-Seven
  57. Imagine a girl
  58. Acknowledgments
  59. About the Author
  60. Also by Ben McPherson
  61. About the Publisher

I thought of Licia behind her bedroom door, mumbling words that we could not hear. I thought of Bror advising her to apologize to her sister. But then I thought of Licia’s tears when we visited the tree we had planted in her memory: Surely those tears at least were genuine?

Bror smiled. “Licia was pregnant and broken when she came to me. Not unlike her mother at that age . . . Very receptive, desperate to be heard, delighted to find me a good listener . . .” That same easy, charming smile that had comforted me a year ago. The sledgehammer blow of his words. “Sorry to be the bearer of bad news.”

“No,” I said. “No, none of that’s true.”

“Tempting to think, though, surely? Would that bring you some closure, an explanation of how she ended up believing what she does? She’s her mother’s daughter, after all, and to be pregnant at fifteen . . . Oh, so she was traumatized. Oh, so she was brutalized. Oh, so she was brainwashed. Maybe that’s how we did it?” He adjusted his stance, made himself tall. “Now move your car.”

“No.”

He looked me up and down. “Or perhaps she despised you, Cal, and everything you stood for. What if she simply looked at us and liked what she saw?”

“No,” I said.

We taught her right from wrong.

Still, the accusation caught me off guard.

Bror made a scoffing sound at the back of his mouth. “Oh, I can see that’s an unbearable thought to the great Cal Curtis . . .”

“Fuck you, Bror.”

Bror laughed. “Let’s not forget I fucked your wife. What if Licia were my daughter all along? She found that argument very persuasive. Father Bror.”

I tried to slow the racing of my mind. I made a point of laughing, of looking him in the eye.

I said, “The dates don’t work.”

“If your wife is to be believed, they don’t . . .”

“And you told Licia that?”

“You’ll never be sure exactly what I told her. She isn’t coming back, Cal. Sorry.” He stepped away. “Now, why don’t we take my implicit threat and make it explicit? There are no safe countries anymore. Wherever you think you will find sanctuary, there we will find you.”

“Except that I’m not afraid of you.”

“Your son will not see his second birthday.” He spoke the words so quietly. For a moment I thought I had misheard.

“Say that again,” I said.

“Victoria will not see adulthood. Your children are as good as dead. Your only legacy will be Licia Curtis and the Garden Island massacre, and even then people will argue over whose daughter she is.”

My right arm swung toward his left temple.

I saw a moment of panic in his eye. He tried to lean away from the blow.

Too late.