Back Love and Other Lies
Chapters (61)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Imagine a girl
  4. Prologue
  5. The Foreigner
  6. One
  7. Two
  8. Three
  9. Four
  10. Five
  11. The Skeptic
  12. Six
  13. Seven
  14. Eight
  15. Nine
  16. Ten
  17. Eleven
  18. Twelve
  19. Thirteen
  20. Fourteen
  21. Fifteen
  22. Sixteen
  23. Seventeen
  24. Eighteen
  25. Nineteen
  26. Twenty
  27. Twenty-One
  28. Twenty-Two
  29. Twenty-Three
  30. The Spectator
  31. Twenty-Four
  32. Twenty-Five
  33. Twenty-Six
  34. Twenty-Seven
  35. Twenty-Eight
  36. Twenty-Nine
  37. The Assassin
  38. Thirty
  39. Thirty-One
  40. Thirty-Two
  41. Thirty-Three
  42. Thirty-Four
  43. Thirty-Five
  44. Thirty-Six
  45. Thirty-Seven
  46. Thirty-Eight
  47. Thirty-Nine
  48. Forty
  49. Forty-One
  50. The Hunter
  51. Forty-Two
  52. Forty-Three
  53. Forty-Four
  54. Forty-Five
  55. Forty-Six
  56. Forty-Seven
  57. Imagine a girl
  58. Acknowledgments
  59. About the Author
  60. Also by Ben McPherson
  61. About the Publisher

Arno looked at Bror. Bror took Arno’s hand, guided it toward the shorter knives at one end of the roll. “This,” he said. “Or even this.”

Arno looked at him again, then reached for a blade with a slight curve.

“Good choice,” said Bror. “Very good.”

Arno smiled, briefly, and Bror returned the smile: an enveloping smile full of warmth and kindness. “Here’s how you hold it.” Guiding the boy’s movements, gently and with confidence. “And here’s how you make the first cut.”

He must have seen me turn away.

“Not a fan of blood, Cal?”

“In my world meat comes from the supermarket.”

He laughed. “You disapprove?”

“Not judging. Just not my thing.”

“I like your honesty,” he said. “Take a short walk.”

I glanced at Arno. He had made a neat cut on the abdomen of one of the rabbits.

Bror caught me looking. “Or stay.” He smiled. “It’s really not so bad.”

Arno nodded at me and smiled too. Unthinkable a year ago. Even a few months ago his eyes had been lifeless and empty. I smiled at the boy, and he nodded at me and picked up the next rabbit.

“I will go for a walk,” I said.

“Introduce yourself to my dogs.”

I began to walk toward the low black-painted farm building.

A dog gave voice. Then another.

“Hush!” said Bror from behind me. That same reassuring gentleness. The dogs fell silent. I saw a yellow eye in a gap between the black-painted slats. A second eye appeared. Watchful and poised behind thin wood. No sound now beyond a low, hoarse panting.

I crouched down, held out the back of my hand. A snout appeared, black and very close. I saw an open jaw lined with heavy teeth, felt the dog draw my scent in through its mouth. “Hey there,” I said. “Hello.” I pushed my hand closer to the slats, and a pink tongue appeared, lapping at my wrist.

“The door is around the side,” said Bror. “They really are very friendly.”

I opened the door to the barn, heard the rasping of breath and the clanking of chain on concrete, saw their dark lurking shapes in the gloom. Three dogs, all haunch and shoulder and pointed snout. Muscular, like sprung steel.

At this end of the barn light fell through the slats and from the open door. I could make out a wall at the far end, and in that wall a door. I hunkered down, held out a hand, but the dogs kept their distance, pacing just out of reach. I took a half step toward them, heard the smallest of them growl in warning.

“Hey,” I said. “I’m one of the good guys.” But none of them would greet me now that I was inside.

When I returned, the rabbits were laid out in a row, their entrails stacked in a neat pile by the fence. Arno was gone.