Back Love and Other Lies
Chapters (61)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Imagine a girl
  4. Prologue
  5. The Foreigner
  6. One
  7. Two
  8. Three
  9. Four
  10. Five
  11. The Skeptic
  12. Six
  13. Seven
  14. Eight
  15. Nine
  16. Ten
  17. Eleven
  18. Twelve
  19. Thirteen
  20. Fourteen
  21. Fifteen
  22. Sixteen
  23. Seventeen
  24. Eighteen
  25. Nineteen
  26. Twenty
  27. Twenty-One
  28. Twenty-Two
  29. Twenty-Three
  30. The Spectator
  31. Twenty-Four
  32. Twenty-Five
  33. Twenty-Six
  34. Twenty-Seven
  35. Twenty-Eight
  36. Twenty-Nine
  37. The Assassin
  38. Thirty
  39. Thirty-One
  40. Thirty-Two
  41. Thirty-Three
  42. Thirty-Four
  43. Thirty-Five
  44. Thirty-Six
  45. Thirty-Seven
  46. Thirty-Eight
  47. Thirty-Nine
  48. Forty
  49. Forty-One
  50. The Hunter
  51. Forty-Two
  52. Forty-Three
  53. Forty-Four
  54. Forty-Five
  55. Forty-Six
  56. Forty-Seven
  57. Imagine a girl
  58. Acknowledgments
  59. About the Author
  60. Also by Ben McPherson
  61. About the Publisher

“They kept this out of evidence,” I said after a time.

“I know,” she said. “Do you think it’s a story?”

I didn’t have to answer. We both knew it was . . .

We watched the rest of the footage without speaking. The camera hovered above the island once more, quietly bearing witness, as the men entered buildings, as they left. If the helicopter approached too closely, the men would raise their weapons; the camera would move to a safer distance, then continue to watch the calm exteriors of the buildings while inside the children were cut down: seven dead here, five here, twelve here. Two shots every time, as we knew from the coroner’s report, while somewhere out of sight the tactical unit foundered in their too-small rubber boat.

The only sound now was Vee’s breathing. In, in and out. An everyday miracle, in the midst of all this death.

Suddenly she was there: the girl in the kingfisher dress. Above her a man on a ledge in a torn T-shirt. Both looked up at the same time. Hearing the helicopter, I guessed.

As I watched, the man threw himself from the ledge into the water and turned toward the shore. He was waving to the camera. You could see him shouting.

“Thank God,” said Vee very quietly. “That’s what he’s saying, right? Thank God. He thinks they’re going to drop a rope or something.”

The girl on-screen raised her hands to shade her eyes. She was smiling. You could feel the relief in her, even at this distance.

Vee leaned across and pressed pause. She picked up the iPad, stared at it very closely. Then she passed it to me.

“She thinks she’s being rescued.”

I looked up, nodded. Vee nodded back.

“Can you make this bigger, Vee?”

“You could. It won’t really help, though. There’s no extra detail.”

I handed the iPad to her. Vee pressed play.

Four more children on the steps now, waving upward. The girl who must be Licia at their head, in her kingfisher dress. The shot began to pull away as the helicopter moved upward. Why was it abandoning them?

Something in the girl changed. Every muscle in her seemed to slacken. She grasped the handrail at the edge of the steps. Strange how you could read the emotion, even at this distance: the realization that no one was coming to save her.

The world failed you, Licia, I thought.

Neither Vee nor I slept. I sat in the kitchen, making phone calls and drinking coffee; Vee sat with me, listening to every word.

Dan wanted TV pictures.

“Why?” I said. “You’re a radio station.”

“We’re that, and we’re whatever else we need to be.”