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Chapters (61)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Imagine a girl
  4. Prologue
  5. The Foreigner
  6. One
  7. Two
  8. Three
  9. Four
  10. Five
  11. The Skeptic
  12. Six
  13. Seven
  14. Eight
  15. Nine
  16. Ten
  17. Eleven
  18. Twelve
  19. Thirteen
  20. Fourteen
  21. Fifteen
  22. Sixteen
  23. Seventeen
  24. Eighteen
  25. Nineteen
  26. Twenty
  27. Twenty-One
  28. Twenty-Two
  29. Twenty-Three
  30. The Spectator
  31. Twenty-Four
  32. Twenty-Five
  33. Twenty-Six
  34. Twenty-Seven
  35. Twenty-Eight
  36. Twenty-Nine
  37. The Assassin
  38. Thirty
  39. Thirty-One
  40. Thirty-Two
  41. Thirty-Three
  42. Thirty-Four
  43. Thirty-Five
  44. Thirty-Six
  45. Thirty-Seven
  46. Thirty-Eight
  47. Thirty-Nine
  48. Forty
  49. Forty-One
  50. The Hunter
  51. Forty-Two
  52. Forty-Three
  53. Forty-Four
  54. Forty-Five
  55. Forty-Six
  56. Forty-Seven
  57. Imagine a girl
  58. Acknowledgments
  59. About the Author
  60. Also by Ben McPherson
  61. About the Publisher

There was Vee, in a dark booth directly opposite me. And there, opposite Vee, was the helicopter pilot Pavel Lisowski. I texted her:

Still up?

She said something to Pavel, busied herself with her phone. My phone vibrated.

Julie’s mum says hi.

What was she doing?

Pavel looked disheveled and unwashed in his pressed black shirt. There was a fresh glass of beer in front of each of them, and beside each beer a shot glass. Pavel was leaning forward; he seemed to be spitting words at my daughter. Vee was looking evenly at this man, head close to his, perfectly unafraid. Even as the anger spiked in me I felt a strange stab of pride.

My little girl. Holding her own.

As I turned left along the second side of the bar a woman barged into me. Beer spilled down my shirt and onto my leg. The woman did not stop.

People milled in both directions. I turned to look at my daughter, and as I did, Vee picked up her shot glass, drank it down, watching Pavel all the while. I saw how she winced, though she hid it well. I looked about. No one but Pavel was paying Vee any mind. Except for me, of course, and she had not yet seen me.

Vee set the glass down on the table, said something to Pavel.

“Excuse me,” I said. A group of women smiled amiably at me, though they carried on blocking my way.

“I need to get past,” I said.

The women smiled. They stayed where they were.

I began moving women out of the way, guiding them by their shoulders, anxious not to be seen as rough or inappropriate, but still the women smiled. The last of the group, a dark-haired woman in a laced fitted top, stood in front of me, right arm on the pillar at the corner of the bar, made a play of refusing to let me pass.

“Please,” I said.

“So polite,” she said. “Would you like to drink beer with me, Mr. Englishman?”

I looked across at Pavel. He was speaking animatedly. He had not yet seen me.

“Scottish,” I said, “and in other circumstances this would be fun.”

“What is it about this that isn’t funny?” said the woman, a look of mock-disappointment on her face.

I pointed. “That’s my daughter. She’s fifteen. That man has bought her alcohol.”

“Oh.” The playfulness dissipated. She stepped out of the way, put a hand on my shoulder. “Do you want me to call the police?” she whispered as I passed.

“I’ve got this. But thanks.”

I rounded the bar, walked straight up to the booth, stood staring down at Vee. “Because they got it excluded,” she was saying, “or ruled inadmissible, or something. You know this.”

Pavel leaned closer in. Had they really not seen me?

“Find someone who DVRed it,” he was saying. “This is not my responsibility, Viktoria.”

“Pavel,” I said.