Back Love and Other Lies
Chapters (61)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Imagine a girl
  4. Prologue
  5. The Foreigner
  6. One
  7. Two
  8. Three
  9. Four
  10. Five
  11. The Skeptic
  12. Six
  13. Seven
  14. Eight
  15. Nine
  16. Ten
  17. Eleven
  18. Twelve
  19. Thirteen
  20. Fourteen
  21. Fifteen
  22. Sixteen
  23. Seventeen
  24. Eighteen
  25. Nineteen
  26. Twenty
  27. Twenty-One
  28. Twenty-Two
  29. Twenty-Three
  30. The Spectator
  31. Twenty-Four
  32. Twenty-Five
  33. Twenty-Six
  34. Twenty-Seven
  35. Twenty-Eight
  36. Twenty-Nine
  37. The Assassin
  38. Thirty
  39. Thirty-One
  40. Thirty-Two
  41. Thirty-Three
  42. Thirty-Four
  43. Thirty-Five
  44. Thirty-Six
  45. Thirty-Seven
  46. Thirty-Eight
  47. Thirty-Nine
  48. Forty
  49. Forty-One
  50. The Hunter
  51. Forty-Two
  52. Forty-Three
  53. Forty-Four
  54. Forty-Five
  55. Forty-Six
  56. Forty-Seven
  57. Imagine a girl
  58. Acknowledgments
  59. About the Author
  60. Also by Ben McPherson
  61. About the Publisher

No, she said. Those men weren’t the police.

Were they safe here?

No, she said, she didn’t think they were. He should come with her to the boat. He could swim, couldn’t he?

Yes, he said, he could swim.

Well then, she said. But she could not persuade him to leave the cover of the woods, no matter what she said.

A pair of shots. A pause. Another pair of shots.

He was clinging to her very tightly. He was hurting her. She was injured, she explained. She couldn’t stay here. She needed him to loosen his grip.

“Sorry,” he said in English. So sorry. He hadn’t meant to hurt her.

You didn’t, she told him, though the pain was more than she had ever known. She bit the inside of her cheek hard, clutched at her thighs with her nails. The boy was looking at her hands. She could hear his breathing, and her own, ragged and hoarse. She knew she was frightening him. But more than that, she knew she must not cry out.

When the pain subsided she asked him to take her pack, to unzip it and take out the metal box, and to place the box under a long piece of rotting pine bark on the forest floor. The boy did what she asked, wordlessly. His face was streaked with dirt and tears. In the forest gloom the blood from her wound was black on his white T-shirt.

When she told him it was okay, that he would be okay, she saw how hard he tried to smile and it almost broke her. You’re being very brave, she told him.

“I don’t want to die.”

What’s your name? she asked him.

“Arno.”

“Then we have to go, Arno,” she said.

He nodded. She promised him he would not die. But he would not leave, and she knew she could not stay.

She kept to the trees on the left side of the path, by the lake. It was heavy going through the underbrush. She had imagined she would slip past the dormitory cabins in the cover of the trees, but as she drew near, panting—her body twisted in anticipation of the pain that increased with every step—she realized that it would not be simple. The cabins were arranged in four straight rows on the other side of the path. Anyone standing outside could see directly on to the path. Worse, the trees on the lake side had been cut away opposite the cabins to give a view on to the water.

Why hadn’t she called someone? Her father? The police? Too late for that now; she would give herself away.

She came to the edge of the woods. Between her and the lake the cabins were small, square, and cheaply built, with miniature terraces and mean little windows.

She began to walk towards the lake. She passed the first row of cabins.