1:13PM: killed maybe ten fruit flies in kitchen with windex. moved at a slower-than-normal pace and avoided ‘wiping’ until the end. it’s unfair that flies get to rest but most fish have to keep moving or they’ll die. there is a hair in my eye. ate 800mg choline, 1g aniracetam. felt more alert and less lumbering. did i say i had a hair in my eye? it’s in my eye, the hair. wouldn’t have felt able to form sentences a few minutes ago. bugs don’t understand that everywhere is not ‘outside.’ i’ve thought this before, that everywhere is ‘outside’ technically, sometimes this gives me a vertigo-like feeling.

was david foster wallace’s graduation speech thing called ‘this is not a fish’

‘this is not water’

slideshow of things that aren’t water

i don’t even know if that’s the real name of the speech yet

oh, ‘this is water’

haha

slideshow of every kind of water…the water cycle…wasn’t there something about fish in his speech

the teacher who spoke at my high school graduation talked for over 30 minutes and people in the audience had bullhorn-like noisemakers and were booing her. then people had something to talk about after the ceremony. highly polarizing speech/event…the booing…she didn’t know it, but she gave the liberty high school class of 2003 and their families/friends the gift of ‘materiel for brief, less-awkward exchanges with people who happen to be standing near you in crowded auditorium lobby, topic is applicable to anyone there, even strangers and people you’d probably otherwise have very little to say to.’ she also gave me the gift of ‘memory that, in ten years and a few months, you can use to occupy yourself with the task of making into sentences for about 20 minutes in a liveblog about your life that you will feel 51% apprehensive and 49% indifferent about updating.’

the only thing i remember about her speech was her leaning over the podium and talking about a rabbit with a carrot on a stick/rope device strapped to its head

the leaning motion looks exaggerated in my memory, her head gets bigger and she makes dictator gestures…she was a small person…‘fiesty’…fluffy head…

does it sound like i’m shittaking her? i’m not. she was one of my favorite teachers. i liked it when she did the thing before everyone graduated, i liked graduating high school

‘i liked graduating high school’

why is that funny to me

three-minute youtube commercial featuring hundreds of celebrities making eye contact with the camera, earnestly saying ‘i liked graduating high school.’ you can’t fast-forward it, you have to watch

it’s for the global…‘global help fund’

‘global help fund’ charity benefit gala evening, brought to you in part by CLGHS (celebrities who liked graduating high school)

too far…too far…went too far with it…

do i sound like i’m shittalking my parents…i’m not…did that thing earlier sound shittalky…shit

there’s no way to change what you think, whoever you are, if you already decided something