around 6:15PM i went downstairs to get mostly still-damp clothes from dryer. threw everything on the bed. blow-dried hair and changed outfit a few times, then used hairdryer to dry sweat from hair/being hot in the apartment. wore white dress i had only worn once, on new year’s eve 2011-2012 at a motel with zachary, with black tights and a black belt and black high heels. thought ‘high class hot girl from ‘girls’ whose dad is a newscaster in real life and isn’t a character that much anymore.’ nervous about [omitted] this whole time. this was part of why i was late, i think. nervousness.

left apartment around 7:05PM. really did get ready pretty fast, i think. realized i didn’t know where i had left my car the other night (after coming home from michael seidlinger roof party around 5AM). jogged to the street and made eye contact with an older woman who said ‘hurry up’ and i said ‘i will’ quietly. walked up and down 118th-108th streets, looking for car. passed a zumba class and texted mira ‘i don’t know where my car is, should i just take a zumba class.’ she and sam were at the [keep wanting to call it ‘reading;’ i was driving when i found out it was just a party] party already. it was 45 minutes away. looked up cabs in my area and didn’t see any. followed a black cab-looking car down 113th st on the ‘giving up’ walk back to my apartment and my car was there. got in. drove fast. did small bump of heroin and gian texted to see if i had any and i said yes and that i was on my way and bringing it. mira asked if i had xanax for she and sam and that they’d pay for it. i said ‘you can have it for free if [omitted]’ and she said ‘[omitted].’

saw spencer and people exiting powerhouse arena when i turned left in front of it to look for parking. remember mira saying ‘spencer and people left to go to some other bar’ maybe three times throughout the night…seemed really funny every time, unintentional non-sequitur. parked on water st. nicholas texted that he was at the party and getting ready to leave and asked where i was. i texted that i was walking inside. this was around 8:30PM.

found mira and sam cooke pretty fast. i think…shit. they were outside. we were all outside. willis’ NYU friend who works at powerhouse joined us. remember hitting mira and sam in excited frenzy and repeating ‘is it just a reading’ and ‘what did i miss’ and maybe ‘where are you going now,’ and them saying ‘they just ran out of alcohol’ and ‘spencer and people just left to go to some other bar’ and shrugging with these faces…i’m laughing…we were all on ‘overdrive.’