12:31PM: heard ice cream truck playing the song zachary and i would sing at each other while making insane ‘ren and stimpy’/‘cartoon of a person going insane’ faces. thought this ice cream truck song was only in philadelphia and i had ‘escaped’ it.

a lot of fast-moving mental picture things. seems foreign. they’re all drawn in the same style, like 8-bit digital…sort of…like a .jpeg photo of…it’s like when the edges of 8-bit things become softer in .jpegs

mental picture of black halloween cat, like, saw that when i closed my eyes

mental picture of…it was like it was painted on steel? aluminum? it was all in red: a man with red beard and…like it was drawn by the same person who drew the cat. the same style. it’s a recognizable drawing style, people use it on napkins i feel…stationary…birthday parties? sesame street

mental picture of the same style of drawing but it was nutrition facts, a close-up/cropped picture of canned something

mental picture of a jeep (the SUV kind/not the ‘off road’ kind) in burger king drive thru line. ordering at the speaker part. other cars in line also. i think it’s the burger king in eldersburg, across from the walmart.

i thought it was a cop but i don’t know what it is: it’s like a dog. kind of. it sounds like a video game cop/dog going ‘bo bo bo bo bo bo.’ it’s definitely a dog for real, it’s louder now, how i did i think that was a cop

mental picture of the window drops of rain on my window the day amahd gave me the $20 and i was in the car talking to mom

i can hear lifeguard whistles, people are at the beach

sometimes feel aroused imagining porno tao and i made in spain

1:04PM: i’m mainly seeing a series of vivid mental pictures that then causes ‘the thing’ to happen…‘the thing’ is a tryptophobia-like grid of tiny periods. tiny dots. they actually seem to be exactly the size of this: ‘.’

some are a little bigger and some are a little smaller. i try to look at them like, ‘look one of them in the eye,’ then i realize it’s not a dot, it’s a spinning thing. it’s part of a very defined spinning checkerboard-like thing. similar to DMT. if i press on my eyes really hard normally i see this also, i remember pressing hard when i was little and seeing it. the spinning component when i was little was more of….well it was dark brown and light brown. it was like multiple sets of the same tiny hose/spiral. remember calling it ‘the earthworms’ in my head. now the version of it i’m seeing is like a warped dark neon purple/pink checkerboard…like that’s underneath ‘the earthworms.’ the ‘.’/periods/grid turn into the checkerboard thing and ‘the earthworms’

1:12PM: heard ‘to get in-to this website’ in neutral male voice and ‘too drunk to get over here’ in mom’s voice. no longer worried about accidental overdose, seems like i’ll be fine.