2:23am: laying in bed leisurely smoking e-cigarette, Shirley purring and kneading on me. Feels so nice.

6:24am: laying again. Unpacked more. Earlier I walked on the beach barefoot. I was the only one there. Stood with my feet in the water. Two beers one banana 2mg knlonopin 1mg Xanax. It will be sad to leave this place, to pack these things. I feel good for life here.

6:34am: took afrin, zeolite, magnesium. Also I had a memory about this time last year and magnesium and Zacky and me. Was trying to replace xanax with magnesium. The memory was the bottle on our bedroom dresser. My hands taking the bottle from the dresser. No, then taking the bottle to bed, eating some, telling Zac I was doing this and why I was doing this. He was in another room. Not sure which. He had recently left the bedroom, for the other room. Maybe. That’s all I got. That’s all that’s left. That’s all folks.

12:16pm: woke saw clock went back to sleep

1:16pm: woke saw clock went back to sleep

2:48pm: woke next to chocolate bar and cats. Ate bite of chocolate. Nose is very stuffy. I dreamed a lot.

2:52pm: there was chocolate on my face in the mirror. Also little pieces on the ‘sheets’ (curtains) and pillow. Today I want to get sheets and a duvet cover and pillowcases.

4:03pm: called insurance agency to clear up things about my car, called Verizon to set up internet. They’re coming Friday. Leisurely smoking e-cigarette and sweeping little crumbs into piles. No dustpan yet. I want to do dishes, shower, then call the superintendent to fix closet, give me mail key, see about gas/stove. Listening to a stereolab record. I forgot I had so many records and how nice it feels to listen to them wee wee wee wee wee in the potty weewee!

4:12pm: set text message and voicemail alert sounds to a noise called ‘suspense.’ sounds ‘2001 a space odyssey’ style. My phone rings to a theremin-like thing called ‘sci-fi’ now. Everyone uses the same iPhone sounds, I feel. These ones are so unpleasant and ridiculous sounding…so good to imagine them startling people in social situations…

6:27pm: washed dishes using soap and hands because you know this motherfucker is spongeless. Made spinach banana smoothie. Showered. Dressed in ‘secretary from the 1960’s who is also a dominatrix and sort of falling apart’ outfit.

Nervous about car. Sleepy. Mira texted about a party tonight, think I’ll feel unsocial, I don’t know. Want to lay in bed all goldang day. Huff my (thought ‘internet cheebah’) e-cigarette.

6:38pm: Alvie is enjoying his continuous water flow device. Shirley is sleeping near me. Happy. Yeah I am a little happy.

6:52pm: I got excited thinking about eating 30mg instead of 15mg adderall, I think that’ll help me go to ikea a little. Okay doing it.

8:20pm: Ikea was closing when I arrived, hurriedly selected things, forgot maybe 30% of things

Huge lines, people still browsing after second ‘we are closed’ announcement.