7:27pm: woman said ‘are you Megan?’ and led me to the laundry room. She said ‘I’m actually just getting here so I’m going to use the bathroom.’ She said a woman with long blonde hair named Jennifer might come into room. She said ‘sit here and make yourself at home’ and walked away. Heard Colin’s voice say ‘are you meeting Megan?’ from building entrance.

8:59pm: after meeting Colin told me I got the apartment. Texted mira to see if she still wants to hang out. Feeling tramadol things big time I think, like very spacey, forget how I act normally or what kind of things I say. At one point in interview Julie was telling a long story about how she ended up with a Christmas tree this year and I was looking at her and nodding and for a moment felt like I was on LSD, like ‘I have no idea what this means, how is this happening, I’m going to freak out and not be able to talk the next time I have to say something.’ Julie and Jennifer seemed to think I was from north Carolina. Surprised not to be ‘grilled’ about how I’ll be able to pay for apartment, or that they didn’t ask me more questions about my job. Jennifer said ‘I think that’s so cool that you’re a writer, what do you write?’ I said ‘I do humor things, humor things and personal essays.’ Surprised I thought of ‘personal essays’ on the spot.’ Jennifer said ‘oh-hhhh’ and smiled and looked unsure of what to say. There was a lot of talking about hurricane Sandy during interview. Interviewers and Colin seemed to know everyone who walked in to the laundry room. When a conversation about my cats finished I said ‘so it’s okay if I just let them walk around in the hallway and on the beach, right?’ Julie paused and said ‘well I’m not sure if—’ I interrupted, ‘I’m kidding, I’m kidding.’ People nodded and went ‘haha’ without laughing. Julie said ‘would they do that, your cats? They go outside and they know how to get back?’ I said ‘no, definitely not, they’re inside cats, definitely, I wouldn’t do that.’ Jennifer said ‘they could go outside on the fire escape, to sit in the sun?’ I said ‘I mean…probably not.’ Colin said ‘yeah, I like cats.’

Colin walked me outside and said it was okay to smoke pot and cigarettes in apartment. Julie walked out at the same time as us. She and Colin knew each other but had forgotten each other’s names. He said ‘Colin, like Colin Farrell.’ she said ‘I’ll remember because of ‘love actually.” he said ‘yeah, Colin Farrell.’ she said ‘no there’s a character, ‘Colin.’ and you’re…?’ I said ‘Megan.’ she said ‘I’ll remember that.’ Colin said ‘Megan Fox.’ I said ‘oh yeah.’ he said ‘Colin Farrell Megan Fox’ and I followed him out the building.

9:17pm: sitting in car. I’m going to be moving everything Monday. Hard to imagine. The logistics…