10:54am: was getting tired laying on my side of couch. asked to switch sides. Shirley was laying between zachary’s and my calves. Zachary said ‘or we could just get up, it’s eleven.’ I said ‘can we just lay here a little more’ and he said yeah. My head was on his chest and my nose was too stuffed to breathe and z turned away. Thought my breath probably smelled. Told a long dream. Left out parts involving sex with attractive men. Zachary said ‘hm.’ I said ‘you dream?’ he said ‘nah.’ continued to lay quietly. I said ‘rabbit rabbit.’ he said ‘huh?’ I said ‘that thing you say on the first of the month for good luck, remember, ‘rabbit rabbit?” he paused, said ‘think about March.’ I said ‘oh shit it’s March thirty-first.’ he said ‘April fools it’s March thirty-first.’

11:02am: asked for water. Zachary had an elastic in his hand. He said ‘Shirley loves this thing.’ I spilled a little water on Zachary and he said ‘hm.’ he said ‘Shirley, are you the mustard man?’

3:57pm: all Zac’s things moved out

Would jump down from pickup and picture landing on my legs, leg snapping completely off, z finding me saying ‘oh shit’

Very hard packing the truck but also felt focused

Moved like a fast machine this time. Yes, it was the faster times this time. Thought of that while looking at a lamp in the front Seat that I knew would need to be rearranged.

Standing in kitchen now. There are things we forgot under the sink. What do you do with these things. You take them with you? Zachary is struggling with the tarp. It started raining as soon as we started moving boxes. He said ‘maybe just go upstairs and chill for a little bit. I’ll just do the rope by myself, I need to think and putz and I’m going to be unpleasant to be around.’ I said I wanted to help still, knowing there wasn’t anything left for me to do, my muscles are weak and I have, if anything, been slowing us down today. Zachary said ‘yeah it doesn’t make sense for you to stay. Shirley’s upstairs. You should just go home, let me do this part.’ I said something about following him to new jersey to ensure things didn’t fall out of the truck, an idea I knew he’d reject, and he did. I said ‘I’m just going to chill upstairs for a bit.’ he said ‘okay, whatever is fine.’