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Chapters (58)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. By the same author
  4. Dedication
  5. 1. Mrs Jamie Reid
  6. 2. Interviews
  7. 3. Sybil Harwood
  8. 4. First Impressions
  9. 5. Bombshell
  10. 6. Finsbury Park
  11. 7. Running Wild
  12. 8. A Little Bird …
  13. 9. One Last Ditch
  14. 10. The Smugglers’ Inn
  15. 11. Plans
  16. 12. Feeling Broody
  17. 13. The New Staff Sister
  18. 14. Tension
  19. 15. Ada’s Nest
  20. 16. Spider’s Web
  21. 17. On a Knife-edge
  22. 18. Hope Farm
  23. 19. Edith
  24. 20. Sybil and Rosie
  25. 21. Happy Days
  26. 22. Ward Rounds
  27. 23. Sweet-talking Rosie
  28. 24. Confidences
  29. 25. Home Sweet Home
  30. 26. Jamie
  31. 27. A Shock
  32. 28. The Secret
  33. 29. Ronnie
  34. 30. Runaways
  35. 31. Reparation
  36. 32. Which Train?
  37. 33. Shock Waves
  38. 34. Gladstone Gardens
  39. 35. Jump for Joy
  40. 36. Return Journey
  41. 37. Action Stations
  42. 38. The Truth Hurts
  43. 39. Another Life
  44. 40. Auntie Sybil
  45. 41. Short-staffed
  46. 42. Tobruk
  47. 43. Missing Person
  48. 44. Whitehall
  49. 45. On a Mission
  50. 46. Motherhood
  51. 47. Triumph
  52. 48. One Good Turn Deserves Another
  53. 49. Zophony House
  54. 50. A Deal is Struck
  55. 51. Shocks and Surprises
  56. 52. Golden Autumn Days
  57. Acknowledgements
  58. THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING

In truth nothing agreed with Sybil. Neither the Home nor the inmates nor pregnancy itself. The nauseous months were well past, giving way to enlarged, painful breasts, indigestion, backache, sleepless nights, and rushing to the lavatory almost every hour. All pretence of being a glamour girl fell away as Sybil’s depressing life engulfed her. She had stopped caring about what she looked like: her long, dark, lustrous hair was becoming thin and straggly, and her previously fine-spirited green eyes showed more defeat than pride these days. She had run out of foundation, rouge and mascara, and had not the slightest interest in replacing any make-up; really, what was the point? For now, life was on hold until she returned to London, where she would grasp life again with a passion – though NOT with Monty by her side, Sybil vowed.

To her everlasting shame, Sybil had overheard some of the residents gossiping about a local girl who worked in the Smugglers’ Inn, where Sybil and Monty had argued when he had last visited.

‘She said he paid her ten bob to spend the night with him, gave her a packet of fags too,’ one of the residents said loudly as Sybil passed by. ‘The fella said he were visiting his girlfriend’ – she winked cheekily in Sybil’s direction – ‘but she was sick – up the duff, so not in’t mood for any slap and tickle.’

Sybil’s pale cheeks flared crimson. ‘God! How utterly humiliating,’ she seethed as she stalked past the gossips with her head held high.

As if her public shaming weren’t enough, loud praise for the Brigadier regularly grated on Sybil’s frayed nerves.

‘Thanks to the Brigadier’s kind intervention,’ she overheard Matron telling an anxious resident, ‘there’s less fear of the Home’s closure, though I must stress,’ she added cautiously, ‘we’re nowhere near out of the woods.’

‘So, are we staying put, then?’ the nervous girl enquired.

‘As I just said,’ Matron answered patiently. ‘We’re still holding our breath and hoping for the best. If the Brigadier succeeds in persuading the powers that be to look elsewhere, hopefully the sword of Damocles hanging over our heads will pass us by, and we shall be saved.’

The questioner gave an irritated shrug – she hadn’t a clue who the hell Damocles was or why he was waving his sword over Mary Vale; all she wanted was a straight yes or no. While Matron was speaking, Ada caught sight of Sybil’s bitter expression. Feeling sorry for her patient, Ada shot her a smile that was not reciprocated.

‘Poor woman,’ Ada thought compassionately. ‘She must be the loneliest woman in Mary Vale.’