“Like what?” she asked. I could feel a lecture coming on, and I didn’t want to hear it.

“My kids, for one. Getting settled at Gram’s house, working with Violet, my job at the school when it starts in the fall, being on my own with two kids. Take your pick.”

“You are not on your own. You have me, you have Daddy, you have brothers and sisters who will help you whenever you need it. Even Levi and Jude will help. Those two jokers helped you today by driving your stuff down. See? We’re all here for you,” she pointed out. I knew they would help me whenever I needed it, but I wanted to feel like I could handle my life on my own for once.

“I’m a grown woman. I’m a mother. I need to be able to do this on my own,” I tried to explain.

“Once upon a time, you were my responsibility. One day you’ll see that a mother never lets that go. I am overjoyed that you’re back home and I am finally able to be there when you need me. And Lily, you need me. Can you let go of this tight leash you have yourself on?”

“What if I let go of it, and I fall apart?” I choked. Talking through the lump in my throat hurt. I had to end this conversation before I turned into a blubbering mess.

“Then I will be here to help you put yourself back together.”

“I’ve never been on my own. I’m talking about true independence. Being an adult. Not a child. Not a fiancée. Not a wife. Just Lily.”

“You are already strong and independent. Standing on your own does not mean you have to actually be alone,” she insisted.

“You want me to be your child and I need to be a grown-up. Do you understand?” Right when Mom was about to answer, Violet walked in. She always did have perfect timing.

“Rose is hogging Calla. She won’t let me hold her.” Violet pouted and threw herself down next to me. “How’re you doing, Lily?” she asked and put her head on my shoulder.

“I’m fine. Did I miss dinner? Or is everyone just grazing tonight?” I asked.

“Since you pulled a disappearing act, we’ve all been grazing. Gram ate early, of course, and she’s left already. I mean, it’s seven o’clock. Jeopardy isn’t going to watch itself, is it? She’ll see you another time.”