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Contents ( 161)
  1. Dedication
  2. Epigraph
  3. Contents
  4. Prologue
  5. June 23, 1988
  6. Part One
  7. February 2016
  8. Chapter 1
  9. Audrey
  10. Chapter 2
  11. Jess
  12. Chapter 3
  13. Lily
  14. Chapter 4
  15. Audrey
  16. Part Two
  17. March
  18. Chapter 5
  19. Audrey
  20. Chapter 6
  21. Lily
  22. Chapter 7
  23. May 2009
  24. Chapter 8
  25. Jess
  26. Chapter 9
  27. October 1987
  28. Chapter 10
  29. Jess
  30. Chapter 11
  31. Audrey
  32. Part Three
  33. April
  34. Chapter 12
  35. Audrey
  36. Chapter 13
  37. April 1972
  38. Chapter 14
  39. Lily
  40. Chapter 15
  41. Jess
  42. Chapter 16
  43. September 1988
  44. Chapter 17
  45. Audrey
  46. Chapter 18
  47. July 2003
  48. Chapter 19
  49. Audrey
  50. Part Four
  51. May
  52. Chapter 20
  53. Audrey
  54. Chapter 21
  55. Audrey
  56. Chapter 22
  57. Audrey
  58. Chapter 23
  59. Lily
  60. Chapter 24
  61. Christmas Day 1988
  62. Chapter 25
  63. Audrey
  64. Chapter 26
  65. Jess
  66. Chapter 27
  67. Audrey
  68. Chapter 28
  69. Lily
  70. Chapter 29
  71. Jess
  72. Chapter 30
  73. Lily
  74. Chapter 31
  75. Audrey
  76. Chapter 32
  77. Jess
  78. Chapter 33
  79. Audrey
  80. Chapter 34
  81. June 1988
  82. Part Five
  83. June
  84. Chapter 35
  85. Audrey
  86. Chapter 36
  87. Lily
  88. Chapter 37
  89. Audrey
  90. Chapter 38
  91. Audrey
  92. Chapter 39
  93. Jess
  94. Chapter 40
  95. Lily
  96. Chapter 41
  97. Audrey
  98. Chapter 42
  99. Jess
  100. Chapter 43
  101. Lily
  102. Chapter 44
  103. Audrey
  104. Chapter 45
  105. Jess
  106. Chapter 46
  107. June 1988
  108. Chapter 47
  109. Jess
  110. Part Six
  111. July
  112. Chapter 48
  113. Jess
  114. Chapter 49
  115. Lily
  116. Chapter 50
  117. Audrey
  118. Chapter 51
  119. Lily
  120. Chapter 52
  121. Audrey
  122. Chapter 53
  123. Lily
  124. Chapter 54
  125. Audrey
  126. Chapter 55
  127. Jess
  128. Chapter 56
  129. Audrey
  130. Chapter 57
  131. June 22, 1988
  132. Chapter 58
  133. Audrey
  134. Chapter 59
  135. Lily
  136. Chapter 60
  137. June 23, 1988
  138. Chapter 61
  139. Jess
  140. Chapter 62
  141. Audrey
  142. Chapter 63
  143. Jess
  144. Chapter 64
  145. Lily
  146. Chapter 65
  147. Jess
  148. Chapter 66
  149. Audrey
  150. Part Seven
  151. November
  152. Chapter 67
  153. Jess
  154. Chapter 68
  155. Lily
  156. Chapter 69
  157. Audrey
  158. Acknowledgments
  159. About the Author
  160. Copyright
  161. About the Publisher

There had been so many moments during the past four weeks that Jess had wanted to sit next to her mum at the kitchen table, clear her throat, and tell her that she was sorry, she’d spoken precipitately, she should never have agreed to the trip. So many nights since the concert at the Albert Hall Jess had lain awake in bed wondering how five days in New York with her mum and Lily could be anything other than disastrous.

Mia sighed again, and Jess’s patience stretched like a rubber band on the brink of snapping. “What is it, Mia? You’ve been sighing in the back of the car ever since we left. I did say it was too early for you to come with us. You’re wasting the best part of a morning when you could be in the library.”

Out of the corner of her eye Jess saw her mum turn to look at Mia, glimpsed a silent communication pass between them. “Mia, what is it? Whatever it is, just tell me.”

Mia paused, and Jess detected another undecipherable look pass between them as her daughter fiddled with the silver stud in her ear.

“OK. Well, the thing is . . . there’s something I haven’t been entirely honest with you about. You know those Saturday mornings I said I was going to the library or studying at a friend’s or whatever? Well, that wasn’t exactly true. Granny and I . . . We’ve been going to that art class at the Royal College together, the one I told you about . . .”

As Mia’s voice trailed off, the words took a few seconds to find form in Jess’s head, like numbers in a color vision test emerging from a mass of dots. “You’ve been going to that art class together behind my back? I can’t believe you’ve been colluding in this, Mum. What on earth were you thinking?”

“Don’t be cross with Granny. She really didn’t want me to lie to you, but she didn’t understand any more than I did why you were so adamant I couldn’t do it. It’s just one morning a week.”

“Please don’t get angry, Jess. I know it was wrong of us to go behind your back but you can see how passionate Mia is about art. I honestly didn’t think that one Saturday morning a week was going to be such a big issue.”

“You and Mia both lying to me is a big issue. You know Mia doesn’t have time for hobbies this year. How can she expect to get into Cambridge if she doesn’t apply herself?”

Jess turned her head in time to see another surreptitious glance pass between her mum and her daughter: if she hadn’t had to look back at the road, she’d have sworn her mum had nodded at Mia.

“Well, that’s the other thing, Mum. You know I love art—I’ve always loved it—and this course . . . Well, the tutor seems to think I’m pretty good. Really good, actually. She thinks that if I got a portfolio together I’d have a really strong chance of getting on an art foundation course after my A-levels. And when I spoke to my art teacher at school, he said the same thing. They’ve even said they’ll write me references. So, the thing is . . . I don’t think I want to go to Cambridge.”