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Contents ( 161)
  1. Dedication
  2. Epigraph
  3. Contents
  4. Prologue
  5. June 23, 1988
  6. Part One
  7. February 2016
  8. Chapter 1
  9. Audrey
  10. Chapter 2
  11. Jess
  12. Chapter 3
  13. Lily
  14. Chapter 4
  15. Audrey
  16. Part Two
  17. March
  18. Chapter 5
  19. Audrey
  20. Chapter 6
  21. Lily
  22. Chapter 7
  23. May 2009
  24. Chapter 8
  25. Jess
  26. Chapter 9
  27. October 1987
  28. Chapter 10
  29. Jess
  30. Chapter 11
  31. Audrey
  32. Part Three
  33. April
  34. Chapter 12
  35. Audrey
  36. Chapter 13
  37. April 1972
  38. Chapter 14
  39. Lily
  40. Chapter 15
  41. Jess
  42. Chapter 16
  43. September 1988
  44. Chapter 17
  45. Audrey
  46. Chapter 18
  47. July 2003
  48. Chapter 19
  49. Audrey
  50. Part Four
  51. May
  52. Chapter 20
  53. Audrey
  54. Chapter 21
  55. Audrey
  56. Chapter 22
  57. Audrey
  58. Chapter 23
  59. Lily
  60. Chapter 24
  61. Christmas Day 1988
  62. Chapter 25
  63. Audrey
  64. Chapter 26
  65. Jess
  66. Chapter 27
  67. Audrey
  68. Chapter 28
  69. Lily
  70. Chapter 29
  71. Jess
  72. Chapter 30
  73. Lily
  74. Chapter 31
  75. Audrey
  76. Chapter 32
  77. Jess
  78. Chapter 33
  79. Audrey
  80. Chapter 34
  81. June 1988
  82. Part Five
  83. June
  84. Chapter 35
  85. Audrey
  86. Chapter 36
  87. Lily
  88. Chapter 37
  89. Audrey
  90. Chapter 38
  91. Audrey
  92. Chapter 39
  93. Jess
  94. Chapter 40
  95. Lily
  96. Chapter 41
  97. Audrey
  98. Chapter 42
  99. Jess
  100. Chapter 43
  101. Lily
  102. Chapter 44
  103. Audrey
  104. Chapter 45
  105. Jess
  106. Chapter 46
  107. June 1988
  108. Chapter 47
  109. Jess
  110. Part Six
  111. July
  112. Chapter 48
  113. Jess
  114. Chapter 49
  115. Lily
  116. Chapter 50
  117. Audrey
  118. Chapter 51
  119. Lily
  120. Chapter 52
  121. Audrey
  122. Chapter 53
  123. Lily
  124. Chapter 54
  125. Audrey
  126. Chapter 55
  127. Jess
  128. Chapter 56
  129. Audrey
  130. Chapter 57
  131. June 22, 1988
  132. Chapter 58
  133. Audrey
  134. Chapter 59
  135. Lily
  136. Chapter 60
  137. June 23, 1988
  138. Chapter 61
  139. Jess
  140. Chapter 62
  141. Audrey
  142. Chapter 63
  143. Jess
  144. Chapter 64
  145. Lily
  146. Chapter 65
  147. Jess
  148. Chapter 66
  149. Audrey
  150. Part Seven
  151. November
  152. Chapter 67
  153. Jess
  154. Chapter 68
  155. Lily
  156. Chapter 69
  157. Audrey
  158. Acknowledgments
  159. About the Author
  160. Copyright
  161. About the Publisher

Jess shook Ben’s outstretched hand, only half reciprocating his broad smile.

“Hey, Jess. It’s good to meet you.”

“Yep, you too. So did it all go OK, Mum? Do you want to tell me about it in the car? I don’t want to hurry you but I’m in a residents’ parking bay and I don’t want to get a ticket.”

Her mum hesitated, and Jess glanced down at her watch, wondering whether Mia had eaten dinner already, wishing she’d had time to phone her before she’d left work.

“Yes, of course. But Ben was just telling me about his travels in South America. He’s been to so many interesting places—Argentina, Chile, Bolivia, Brazil. You’ve always wanted to go to Patagonia, haven’t you?”

Jess swiveled her key ring around her finger, felt it dig into her flesh. “Yes, but I don’t think that’s very likely in the near future. I’m sorry, I don’t mean to be rude but I’ve still got a mountain of work to do for tomorrow’s shoot and I do need to get back to the car. Do you think we could get going?”

“You know, Audrey, I could always run you home from rehearsals, if that’s helpful? You’re Shepherd’s Bush, right? I’m Chiswick. It seems silly to drag your daughter here when I could easily drop you back.”

“Oh, I couldn’t possibly impose on you like that. It’s really very kind, but I can easily get a cab.”

“Honestly, it’s no trouble at all. Saturdays would be tricky as I have private piano students straight after but Wednesday nights really aren’t a problem. Seriously, it’s crazy you paying for a cab or getting your family to collect you when I’m practically driving past your door.”

“Mum, just say yes, for goodness’ sake. He’s obviously very happy to do it.”

An echo of impatience lingered in the air. Jess noticed a tinge of pink heat her mum’s cheeks, saw Ben look down at the piano keys as though he might have left something on top of them. She watched as her mum pulled a tissue from her handbag, coughed into it, and rolled it into a ball before slipping it back inside.

“Well, if you’re sure, Ben, that really is very kind of you. Jess, I’m sorry to be a pain but I just need to use the bathroom quickly. You go ahead and I’ll see you at the car.”

Standing next to Jess’s car, looking at her license plate, and tapping digits into a handheld device was a short, stout middle-aged man in a notorious bottle-green uniform.

“You’ve got to be kidding me. I’ve only been gone a couple of minutes.”

The traffic warden glanced at Jess and then back at his machine, continuing to fill in the details of her parking ticket even as he replied. “You saw the sign? Then you shouldn’t be surprised you got a ticket.”

“I only left the car for a moment while I ran inside to collect my mum. Isn’t there some rule about five minutes’ grace?”