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Chapters (76)
  1. Title Page
  2. Table of Contents
  3. Other Books by Lexi Ryan
  4. About If It’s Only Love
  5. Dedication
  6. Shay
  7. Part I.
  8. Shay
  9. Easton
  10. Shay
  11. Shay
  12. Part II.
  13. Shay
  14. Easton
  15. Shay
  16. Easton
  17. Shay
  18. Easton
  19. Part III.
  20. Shay
  21. Easton
  22. Shay
  23. Part IV.
  24. Shay
  25. Easton
  26. Shay
  27. Easton
  28. Shay
  29. Part V.
  30. Easton
  31. Shay
  32. Easton
  33. Shay
  34. Easton
  35. Shay
  36. Part VI.
  37. Easton
  38. Shay
  39. Shay
  40. Easton
  41. Shay
  42. Easton
  43. Part VII.
  44. Shay
  45. Part VIII.
  46. Easton
  47. Shay
  48. Easton
  49. Shay
  50. Part IX.
  51. Shay
  52. Easton
  53. Part X.
  54. Easton
  55. Easton
  56. Shay
  57. Shay
  58. Part XI.
  59. Shay
  60. Part XII.
  61. Shay
  62. Easton
  63. Shay
  64. Easton
  65. Shay
  66. Shay
  67. Easton
  68. Shay
  69. Easton
  70. Shay
  71. Shay
  72. Easton
  73. Easton
  74. Acknowledgments
  75. Contact
  76. Copyright Notice

“Shay, you’ve noticed your symptoms lately, haven’t you? The queasiness? Aversion to alcohol? The constant exhaustion?” She points to the toilet. “The puking.”

I wipe my forehead one last time then my mouth. “It’s the stress. It jacks with my stomach.”

“But you weren’t using condoms.”

I wave a hand. “No worries, Mom, I’m on the pill.”

“But—”

“And I haven’t missed a period.”

Her lips buzz with her dramatic exhale. “Thank God. Sorry, that’s the first place my mind goes.” Her smile falls away. “But you do know you should get tested for STIs, right? Just in case?”

I wipe my face again. “I know. I’ll call my doctor.” My purse vibrates from the middle of the bathroom floor, and I frown at it.

Teagan arches a brow. “Is that your phone or a malfunctioning sex toy?”

I roll my eyes but then lose my smile. “I’m afraid it’s Easton. I said some pretty shitty things to him, and I’m not ready to be a mature adult and apologize.”

“Given that he threatened you with kisses and was coerced into wall sex, maybe it might be a decent idea to cool off before you talk.”

I nod. This is reasonable. But I’m staring at my purse, willing it to do that buzz, buzz, buzz thing that happens when someone sends one text after another. But it was just the one.

“Do you want me to look?” she asks. I nod again and watch with way too much anticipation as she pulls my phone from my purse, unlocks it, and opens my texts. Her forehead wrinkles as she reads.

“Is it from him?”

“Yeah.” She turns the phone to me so I can read.

Easton: I never chose Scarlett over you. She would lose that matchup every time. I chose my daughter over myself.

My breath whooshes out of me, and the nausea comes roaring back.

“Okay. So there’s still a lot I don’t know about you and Easton, it seems,” Teagan says. She takes my hand and squeezes it. “You know you can tell me the truth, right? I won’t judge you if . . .”

“If I was Easton’s mistress? If he cheated on Scarlett with me?”

She grimaces, probably because of my word choice. “I understand better than most people that many situations are more complicated than they appear on the surface.”

“Like with you and your ex?” I don’t know everything about Teagan’s past—I guess we both have secrets—but I do know she and Carter got together when he was pretending to be her boyfriend to protect her from an old flame.

“Something like that,” she says.