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Chapters (76)
  1. Title Page
  2. Table of Contents
  3. Other Books by Lexi Ryan
  4. About If It’s Only Love
  5. Dedication
  6. Shay
  7. Part I.
  8. Shay
  9. Easton
  10. Shay
  11. Shay
  12. Part II.
  13. Shay
  14. Easton
  15. Shay
  16. Easton
  17. Shay
  18. Easton
  19. Part III.
  20. Shay
  21. Easton
  22. Shay
  23. Part IV.
  24. Shay
  25. Easton
  26. Shay
  27. Easton
  28. Shay
  29. Part V.
  30. Easton
  31. Shay
  32. Easton
  33. Shay
  34. Easton
  35. Shay
  36. Part VI.
  37. Easton
  38. Shay
  39. Shay
  40. Easton
  41. Shay
  42. Easton
  43. Part VII.
  44. Shay
  45. Part VIII.
  46. Easton
  47. Shay
  48. Easton
  49. Shay
  50. Part IX.
  51. Shay
  52. Easton
  53. Part X.
  54. Easton
  55. Easton
  56. Shay
  57. Shay
  58. Part XI.
  59. Shay
  60. Part XII.
  61. Shay
  62. Easton
  63. Shay
  64. Easton
  65. Shay
  66. Shay
  67. Easton
  68. Shay
  69. Easton
  70. Shay
  71. Shay
  72. Easton
  73. Easton
  74. Acknowledgments
  75. Contact
  76. Copyright Notice

He exhales slowly, then starts again. “I want to watch you grow with this child and hold your hand while you learn what it means to be a mother. Because I know you’re going to be incredible, whether you do it alone or with someone by your side. But damn it, Shay, I don’t want you to do it alone, and I don’t want you to do it with anyone else. I want all of your babies to call me Dad. I want to be the person who wakes up with you during the sleepless nights and who reminds you that you’re kicking ass when the kid turns three and becomes a miniature demon. And hey—lucky for you, I’ve been there and can assure you that they do grow out of it.”

I laugh and feel hot tears spill down my cheeks.

“I want to take you to Paris and hold you during thunderstorms. I want to read your books and wake up to the smell of you on my sheets. And maybe it’s not fair of me to say so, but I want to do all that with you here. In Jackson Harbor, home. Because your family is awesome and I know your mom doesn’t want to miss watching her grandchild grow. But if what you need is in L.A., I’ll move back there. I’ll find a way to protect Abi from the press. I’ll figure it out. But when I say I love you, I need you to understand that I mean everything I just said, because I can’t live thinking you don’t really know how I feel and I’m shit with the romantic words.”

“I think you’re pretty good,” I say, then I hiccup. Because tears.

“I had a lot of notes and time to prepare. I was really nervous.”

“I liked it,” I whisper.

“Once I sat down and got going it was easy, but not at first. To me, it’s so obvious and it never occurred to me that you needed to hear it. I should’ve realized a long time ago that it isn’t so clear from where you stand. You’re the woman I love. The one I want. The future I want. If you want me.”

“Of course I want you.” I loop my arms behind his neck.

“Why?” he whispers, and there’s a smile in his eyes.

“Because of who you are. Because you’re the man I love and the one I want.”

He wraps his arms behind my back and pulls me close. “That’s more than enough.”

Shay

Brayden has never smiled as much as he has since he started dating Molly, and never smiled as big as he did standing on the sand behind our family cabin and saying his vows.