Back I Miss You, I Hate This
Chapters (52)
  1. COVER
  2. DEDICATION
  3. FALL
  4. PARISA
  5. GABRIELA
  6. PARISA
  7. GABRIELA
  8. PARISA
  9. GABRIELA
  10. PARISA
  11. GABRIELA
  12. PARISA
  13. GABRIELA
  14. PARISA
  15. GABRIELA
  16. GABRIELA
  17. PARISA
  18. WINTER
  19. GABRIELA
  20. PARISA
  21. GABRIELA
  22. PARISA
  23. PARISA
  24. GABRIELA
  25. PARISA
  26. GABRIELA
  27. GABRIELA
  28. PARISA
  29. PARISA
  30. GABRIELA
  31. SPRING
  32. GABRIELA
  33. PARISA
  34. GABRIELA
  35. PARISA
  36. PARISA
  37. GABRIELA
  38. PARISA
  39. GABRIELA
  40. PARISA
  41. GABRIELA
  42. GABRIELA
  43. PARISA
  44. PARISA
  45. GABRIELA
  46. PARISA
  47. GABRIELA
  48. SUMMER
  49. PARISA
  50. GABRIELA
  51. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  52. DISCOVER MORE

Gabriela

We got stomachaches from eating too much?

Parisa

You really don’t remember?

Gabriela

I don’t know. The guy gave us free ice cream?

Parisa

He gave YOU free ice cream because he said he loved seeing a pretty face. And then he looked right at me and charged me six dollars. It was humiliating, and you didn’t even call him out on it or check to see if I was okay after we left the store.

Gabriela

I’m sorry! I didn’t realize what happened. But thanks for bringing it up six months later.

Parisa

I just wish that for once you’d recognize your beauty privilege.

Gabriela

That’s not a thing.

Parisa

Well, it should be.

Gabriela

Are you effing kidding me right now? You’re on the path to being valedictorian. You’re gonna go to Harvard. You’re the epitome of privilege. I never make you feel bad about that stuff.

Parisa

Do you know why I get good grades? Because I HAVE TO. I care about what college I get into because I have to care.

Gabriela

And you don’t think I have to care about getting good grades? You don’t think there’s pressure on me to have a better life than my moms?

Parisa

That’s not what I’m saying. I just think it’s different. If love is never going to be in the cards for me, then I at least need a good job.

And I know that high school has sucked for both of us, but I’m the one who’s suffered through four years of being called “that hairy Persian” because of my arms or “Pinocchio” because of my nose.

Gabriela

Parisa, no joke. I know things are really heavy right now, but this is a lot.

Parisa

I know this might come as a shock, but I can be mad at you without being, like, irrational.

Hello?

So now you’re not gonna write me back? That’s great. So glad we had this talk.

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GABRIELA

I’m not sure what it says about me, but all my best works of art—the ones I’ve begun and completed in one sitting—always poured out of me when I was in a state of fury. Whether it was after a fight with my moms or after a particularly rough shift at Katie’s Diner, I’d put my headphones on, listen to Megan Thee Stallion (“Savage” on repeat), and get all my angst and emotion out with paint. So I guess I have Parisa to thank for all the progress I’m making right now on my George Seurat homage.