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Chapters (66)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. London Fields
  5. 2010
  6. Hannah
  7. Cate
  8. Lissa
  9. Cate
  10. Abjections
  11. Hannah
  12. Lissa
  13. Soulmates
  14. Cate
  15. Lissa
  16. Hannah
  17. Resistance
  18. Cate
  19. Lissa
  20. Hannah
  21. True North
  22. Cate
  23. Lissa
  24. Hannah
  25. London
  26. Lissa
  27. Cate
  28. Lissa
  29. Hannah
  30. Bras
  31. Cate
  32. Hannah
  33. Cate
  34. Hannah
  35. Cate
  36. Hannah
  37. Lissa
  38. Hannah
  39. Lissa
  40. Hens
  41. Cate
  42. Hannah
  43. Lissa
  44. Hannah
  45. Cate
  46. Lissa
  47. Hannah
  48. Epithalamium
  49. Lissa
  50. Hannah
  51. Cate
  52. Lissa
  53. Hannah
  54. Lissa
  55. Hannah
  56. Cate
  57. Lissa
  58. Hannah
  59. Lissa
  60. 2012
  61. Hannah
  62. London Fields
  63. Acknowledgments
  64. About the Author
  65. Also by Anna Hope
  66. About the Publisher

She looks up to see a woman standing close to her, a baby around the same age as Tom in her arms. “I was told it was OK for little ones.”

“I know. I think perhaps you have to keep to the corner.” Cate gestures to the mat beneath her.

“Really?” The woman looks cross. “Well, what’s the bloody point in that?”

The woman’s baby has seen Tom and is reaching out for him. The mother notices, amused. “You want to get down?” She kneels and puts her child on the mat. The baby is dressed in hand-knitted, haphazard style. She wears a home-spun bonnet which gives her the look of a small mushroom, or a Bruegel peasant. The woman plucks her daughter’s hat from her head and black curls spring forth, then throws off her own sweater. She is small, with a gentle intensity to her features, short brown hair, angular bangs.

On the mat, their children are groping for each other. Their hands touch and they both scream in delight. The woman laughs. “Who’s this?”

“This is Tom,” says Cate.

“This is Nora,” says the woman.

“That’s a good name.”

“You think? My partner decided on it. All the ones I wanted had some sort of tragedy attached to them. Antigone. Iphigenia.”

Is she joking? Cate can’t tell, but the woman catches her eye and smiles. She sits back and blows her bangs from her forehead. “Where’s the Tom from then?”

“Oh, well, we just liked it I suppose.”

“Fair enough.” The woman reaches out and places a toy in front of Nora. It has lots of buttons which Nora presses in turn, blaring out Americanized versions of nursery rhymes.

“Oh, nononononono.” The woman leans in and turns the sound off. “We’ve had quite enough of that for one morning.” Nora presses the buttons a few more times, but when they yield nothing, loses interest and crawls over to where Tom is bashing a block against the side of a table. “I like the onesie,” says the woman, gesturing to him.

“Oh.” Cate can feel herself blush. “We were late, and he was sleeping, so—”

“I’d wear one myself if I could. Can you imagine, someone putting you in a onesie and tucking you in? Letting you sleep? Heaven.” The woman closes her eyes, and for a moment exhaustion takes over her features, until there is a cry and she snaps them open again. Nora is reaching for the wisps of hair on Tom’s head. “Oh no no, we don’t grab, darling,” says the woman, lifting her child away and onto her lap as Nora’s fingers clutch on air.

“Nora Barnacle!” says Cate. “Joyce.” She has spoken before she has thought.