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Chapters (66)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. London Fields
  5. 2010
  6. Hannah
  7. Cate
  8. Lissa
  9. Cate
  10. Abjections
  11. Hannah
  12. Lissa
  13. Soulmates
  14. Cate
  15. Lissa
  16. Hannah
  17. Resistance
  18. Cate
  19. Lissa
  20. Hannah
  21. True North
  22. Cate
  23. Lissa
  24. Hannah
  25. London
  26. Lissa
  27. Cate
  28. Lissa
  29. Hannah
  30. Bras
  31. Cate
  32. Hannah
  33. Cate
  34. Hannah
  35. Cate
  36. Hannah
  37. Lissa
  38. Hannah
  39. Lissa
  40. Hens
  41. Cate
  42. Hannah
  43. Lissa
  44. Hannah
  45. Cate
  46. Lissa
  47. Hannah
  48. Epithalamium
  49. Lissa
  50. Hannah
  51. Cate
  52. Lissa
  53. Hannah
  54. Lissa
  55. Hannah
  56. Cate
  57. Lissa
  58. Hannah
  59. Lissa
  60. 2012
  61. Hannah
  62. London Fields
  63. Acknowledgments
  64. About the Author
  65. Also by Anna Hope
  66. About the Publisher

Lissa takes her hand and squeezes it lightly. “Won’t be a sec.”

Hannah watches her friend weave over to the bar, watches the young man serving light up at her attention. A bright, shared laugh and Lissa is back outside, her red wine in a plastic cup. “All right if I have a quick cig?”

Hannah holds the wine while Lissa rolls. “When are you going to give that up?”

“Soon.” Lissa lights up and blows smoke over her shoulder.

“You’ve been saying that for fifteen years.”

“Have I? Oh well.” Lissa’s bangles clink as she reaches back to take her wine. “I had the callback,” she says.

“Oh?” It’s terrible, but Hannah never remembers. There have been so many auditions. So many parts almost had.

“A fringe thing—but a good thing. A good director. The Polish woman.”

“Ah.” She remembers now. “Chekhov?”

“Yeah. Vanya. Yelena.”

“So how did it go?”

Lissa shrugs. “Good. In parts.” She takes a sip of wine. “Who knows? She worked with me quite a bit on the speech.” And then she launches into an impression of the Polish director, replete with accents and mannerisms.

“Here, do it again. Make it real. None of this—how do you say it? Microwave emotion—put it on high. Two minutes. Ping! Tastes like shit.”

“Jesus,” says Hannah, laughing. It always astonishes her, the crap Lissa puts up with. “Well, if you don’t get the part, you could always do a one-woman show, Directors I Have Known and Been Rejected By.”

“Yeah well, that’d be funny if it weren’t true. No. It is funny. Just . . .” Lissa frowns and throws her cigarette into the gutter. “Don’t say it again.”

“Not bad,” says Lissa, as they emerge from the cinema into the darkness of the street outside. “Bit Chekhovy actually.” She threads her arm through Hannah’s. “Not much happens forever and then the big emotional punch. The Polish director would probably have loved it. Long though,” she continues, as they head down towards the market, “and no decent parts for women.”

“No?” It hadn’t occurred to Hannah, but now that she thinks of it, it’s true.

“Wouldn’t pass the Bechdel test.”

“The Bechdel test?”

“Jesus, Han, call yourself a feminist.” Lissa steers her towards the crossing. “You know—does a film have two women in it? Do they both have names? Do they have a conversation about something other than a man? This American writer came up with it. Loads of them fail it. Most of them.”

Hannah thinks. “They did have that conversation,” she says. “In the middle of the film. About the fish.”

They both snort with laughter as they cross the street arm in arm.

“Speaking of fish,” says Lissa, “you want to eat something? We could head down and get some noodles.”

Hannah pulls out her phone. “I should get back. I’ve got a report due tomorrow.”

“Through the market then?”