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Chapters (66)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. London Fields
  5. 2010
  6. Hannah
  7. Cate
  8. Lissa
  9. Cate
  10. Abjections
  11. Hannah
  12. Lissa
  13. Soulmates
  14. Cate
  15. Lissa
  16. Hannah
  17. Resistance
  18. Cate
  19. Lissa
  20. Hannah
  21. True North
  22. Cate
  23. Lissa
  24. Hannah
  25. London
  26. Lissa
  27. Cate
  28. Lissa
  29. Hannah
  30. Bras
  31. Cate
  32. Hannah
  33. Cate
  34. Hannah
  35. Cate
  36. Hannah
  37. Lissa
  38. Hannah
  39. Lissa
  40. Hens
  41. Cate
  42. Hannah
  43. Lissa
  44. Hannah
  45. Cate
  46. Lissa
  47. Hannah
  48. Epithalamium
  49. Lissa
  50. Hannah
  51. Cate
  52. Lissa
  53. Hannah
  54. Lissa
  55. Hannah
  56. Cate
  57. Lissa
  58. Hannah
  59. Lissa
  60. 2012
  61. Hannah
  62. London Fields
  63. Acknowledgments
  64. About the Author
  65. Also by Anna Hope
  66. About the Publisher

HANNAH IS GETTING MARRIED. NATHAN HAS PROPOSED IN A cottage in Cornwall. They have been a couple for ten and a half years. She is having a little gathering at the new flat to toast the announcement, with her best women, Lissa and Cate.

It is February, but sunny and mild as Cate and Lissa walk the small distance from the big house, down Broadway Market towards Hannah’s flat. They stop at the liquor store on the way. “Cava?” says Cate, lifting a bottle. “Champagne,” says Lissa. “Let’s get a bit of Veuve.”

At the bottom of the canal they turn right, where they announce their arrival at a plain metal door and Hannah buzzes them inside. The flat smells both earthy and clean—the interior staircase has been newly covered with sisal. Hannah appears, smiling at the top of the stairs, dressed in simple trousers, a silk shirt. Cate and Lissa take off their shoes and walk slowly up the stairs, the sisal pleasantly rough beneath their feet. The stairs give onto a large, open kitchen and living room, where a long blue sofa sits along one wall.

Cate has seen this flat before—visited often since Hannah and Nathan moved here last year—but tonight it looks different; it is as though the definition has been turned up. Her eyes graze the details of the room: the elegant sofa, a table of lightest wood, a brown jug placed just so upon it, knives arranged by size on a magnetized strip on the wall. They seem to look back at her, these objects, with a cool judging gaze. They seem to ask her how she measures up.

They take their drinks and go through sliding doors onto a large terrace with a view over Haggerston Park where they drink their Veuve and toast their friend.

Hannah carries a particular radiance this spring-like evening as though she herself is the chief exhibit in this backdrop of her own curating, as though all of this—the terrace and the park and her home glowing gently on the other side of the glass doors—were simply there to reflect her radiance, her status as a bride.

After a little while Cate excuses herself—she has to go to the bathroom. In Hannah’s bathroom there is no clutter, there are no bottles on the bathtub or in the shower. Instead, in the cabinet, there are matching jars of brown glass.