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Chapters (83)
  1. Cover
  2. Maps
  3. Epigraph
  4. Prologue
  5. Chapter 1
  6. Chapter 2
  7. Chapter 3
  8. Chapter 4
  9. Chapter 5
  10. Chapter 6
  11. Chapter 7
  12. Chapter 8
  13. Chapter 9
  14. Chapter 10
  15. Chapter 11
  16. Chapter 12
  17. Chapter 13
  18. Chapter 14
  19. Chapter 15
  20. Chapter 16
  21. Chapter 17
  22. Chapter 18
  23. Chapter 19
  24. Chapter 20
  25. Chapter 21
  26. Chapter 22
  27. Chapter 23
  28. Chapter 24
  29. Chapter 25
  30. Chapter 26
  31. Chapter 27
  32. Chapter 28
  33. Chapter 29
  34. Chapter 30
  35. Chapter 31
  36. Chapter 32
  37. Chapter 33
  38. Chapter 34
  39. Chapter 35
  40. Chapter 36
  41. Chapter 37
  42. Chapter 38
  43. Chapter 39
  44. Chapter 40
  45. Chapter 41
  46. Chapter 42
  47. Chapter 43
  48. Chapter 44
  49. Chapter 45
  50. Chapter 46
  51. Chapter 47
  52. Chapter 48
  53. Chapter 49
  54. Chapter 50
  55. Chapter 51
  56. Chapter 52
  57. Chapter 53
  58. Chapter 54
  59. Chapter 55
  60. Chapter 56
  61. Chapter 57
  62. Chapter 58
  63. Chapter 59
  64. Chapter 60
  65. Chapter 61
  66. Chapter 62
  67. Chapter 63
  68. Chapter 64
  69. Chapter 65
  70. Chapter 66
  71. Chapter 67
  72. Chapter 68
  73. Chapter 69
  74. Chapter 70
  75. Chapter 71
  76. Chapter 72
  77. Chapter 73
  78. Chapter 74
  79. Chapter 75
  80. Chapter 76
  81. Chapter 77
  82. Epilogue
  83. About the Author

Another almost imperceptible nod.

‘Their names are Yngve and Idun Formby. He must be close to seventy by now and she’s a couple of years younger, if I remember correctly. It’s been a while since I’ve seen them. But it follows that they were pretty old when they got me, past forty. Far too old.’

Karen swallows.

‘They weren’t able to have children of their own, as I’m sure you’ve pieced together by now, so they took a ready-made one. And by the time they realised what a disappointment I was, they were too old to be given any more adopted kids.’

The camera zooms in on Luna’s rigid face and stays there while Billy asks the next question.

‘Are you happy with yours?’

Luna’s eyes dart to the side, as though she’s trying to figure out what he means.

‘Your adopted children, I mean. Are you happy with them?’

‘Yeees . . .’ Luna says uncertainly, as though she can sense that whichever answer she chooses, it will be the wrong one.

‘Lucky you, then. Since your biological son never meant anything to you, I mean. Were you unable to have more real kids, is that why you had to go down to Africa to buy other people’s?’

‘They are my real children.’

‘No, they’re not. I’m your real child, but you never even bothered to look me up. Even though you had tonnes of money and every opportunity. And that’s charge number three. You were happy to go to Africa, but not Doggerland.’

‘I’m sorry, Billy, but I just couldn’t . . . Even if I’d known—’

‘Shut up!’

Billy screams the words.

‘Shut up, shut up, shut up!’

He continues to scream and sob until he’s interrupted by a coughing fit. The camera shakes and seems about to be turned off as an unfocused jumble of table legs, a plastic bucket, Luna’s bare feet and something that looks like a rag rug flicker past.

Then the coughing subsides, and the camera is once again pointed at Luna’s face. Her eyes wild with terror now.

The only sound is Billy’s ragged breathing. Eventually, it begins to slow. Then his voice is back, seemingly unperturbed, as though nothing happened.

‘They’re religious, too,’ he says. ‘Just like you. Believers in a higher power. You believe, don’t you?’

‘Yes, but I’m not—’

‘They believe in a god who punishes people like me,’ Billy cuts in. ‘Who will send me to hell when I die. Do you think that’s where I’ll end up, too?’

‘I don’t believe in that kind of heaven and hell.’