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Chapters (83)
  1. Cover
  2. Maps
  3. Epigraph
  4. Prologue
  5. Chapter 1
  6. Chapter 2
  7. Chapter 3
  8. Chapter 4
  9. Chapter 5
  10. Chapter 6
  11. Chapter 7
  12. Chapter 8
  13. Chapter 9
  14. Chapter 10
  15. Chapter 11
  16. Chapter 12
  17. Chapter 13
  18. Chapter 14
  19. Chapter 15
  20. Chapter 16
  21. Chapter 17
  22. Chapter 18
  23. Chapter 19
  24. Chapter 20
  25. Chapter 21
  26. Chapter 22
  27. Chapter 23
  28. Chapter 24
  29. Chapter 25
  30. Chapter 26
  31. Chapter 27
  32. Chapter 28
  33. Chapter 29
  34. Chapter 30
  35. Chapter 31
  36. Chapter 32
  37. Chapter 33
  38. Chapter 34
  39. Chapter 35
  40. Chapter 36
  41. Chapter 37
  42. Chapter 38
  43. Chapter 39
  44. Chapter 40
  45. Chapter 41
  46. Chapter 42
  47. Chapter 43
  48. Chapter 44
  49. Chapter 45
  50. Chapter 46
  51. Chapter 47
  52. Chapter 48
  53. Chapter 49
  54. Chapter 50
  55. Chapter 51
  56. Chapter 52
  57. Chapter 53
  58. Chapter 54
  59. Chapter 55
  60. Chapter 56
  61. Chapter 57
  62. Chapter 58
  63. Chapter 59
  64. Chapter 60
  65. Chapter 61
  66. Chapter 62
  67. Chapter 63
  68. Chapter 64
  69. Chapter 65
  70. Chapter 66
  71. Chapter 67
  72. Chapter 68
  73. Chapter 69
  74. Chapter 70
  75. Chapter 71
  76. Chapter 72
  77. Chapter 73
  78. Chapter 74
  79. Chapter 75
  80. Chapter 76
  81. Chapter 77
  82. Epilogue
  83. About the Author

‘I just haven’t had anything to eat in a while,’ she says and reaches for her water glass.

‘Here, take this,’ Karl says and pulls a half-eaten chocolate bar out of his pocket. ‘It’s important to eat when you—’

‘Shall we keep going?’ She cuts him off loudly with a nod to Sören Larsen.

And while her mind races on, she watches the fourth video start up and hears Billy Formby’s affected voice fill the room again.

*

‘Interview with Lena Johanson, 4 May, 3.20 a.m. Are you ready to hear the charges against you?’

No answer.

‘You’ve had a few days to think since we last talked. I assume you’ve come up with a defence? Have you?’

A slow headshake.

‘Please, Billy . . .’

‘You should probably start preparing. But maybe it’ll be easier for you when you know exactly what you’re accused of. Shall we begin?’

Luna’s head is bowed and her shoulders look like they’re shaking. No answer.

‘I asked if you’re ready to begin. You have to answer me when I ask you something, Mummy, dearest. Are you ready?’

A barely perceptible movement of her head.

‘Yes,’ Luna replies faintly.

‘The first charge is actually the lesser one. That’s good news, right?’

This time, he doesn’t wait for a reply, just carries right on. He sounds calm again now. Almost like he’s intoning the words.

‘Giving a child up for adoption is not an unforgivable sin. You fucked around and got knocked up at fifteen. Of course you didn’t want to be a mother at that age. It was careless, but not something I’m going to judge you for. Do you understand that?’

She makes no reply. Billy doesn’t say anything, either. The silence seems to stretch out endlessly until Luna eventually capitulates again.

‘I understand,’ she says.

‘Good, then let’s move on. When you give up a child, it’s important to make sure the adoptive parents are . . . how to put it . . . good people. Did you do that?’

At that, Luna raises her head and briefly looks straight into the camera. Her face is swollen, and her eyes look oddly vacant. Then she lowers her eyes again. Her voice weak and dejected.

‘I was never told where you ended up. Everything was arranged by . . . others.’

He attempts a laugh. It sounds more like barking.

‘By others, you say? Are you referring to your family, or maybe Social Services?’

‘I don’t know who decided what, Billy. Honestly. I was completely . . . everything was so . . . I was just a child myself, for God’s sake.’

Luna’s voice breaks and another barking laugh is heard.

‘So that’s your defence? You were a child yourself? That was the reason you never bothered to find out where I ended up?’

No answer.

‘Then let me fill you in. About where I was sent. About who raised your child. Would you like to know?’