Chapters (83)
- Cover
- Maps
- Epigraph
- Prologue
- Chapter 1
- Chapter 2
- Chapter 3
- Chapter 4
- Chapter 5
- Chapter 6
- Chapter 7
- Chapter 8
- Chapter 9
- Chapter 10
- Chapter 11
- Chapter 12
- Chapter 13
- Chapter 14
- Chapter 15
- Chapter 16
- Chapter 17
- Chapter 18
- Chapter 19
- Chapter 20
- Chapter 21
- Chapter 22
- Chapter 23
- Chapter 24
- Chapter 25
- Chapter 26
- Chapter 27
- Chapter 28
- Chapter 29
- Chapter 30
- Chapter 31
- Chapter 32
- Chapter 33
- Chapter 34
- Chapter 35
- Chapter 36
- Chapter 37
- Chapter 38
- Chapter 39
- Chapter 40
- Chapter 41
- Chapter 42
- Chapter 43
- Chapter 44
- Chapter 45
- Chapter 46
- Chapter 47
- Chapter 48
- Chapter 49
- Chapter 50
- Chapter 51
- Chapter 52
- Chapter 53
- Chapter 54
- Chapter 55
- Chapter 56
- Chapter 57
- Chapter 58
- Chapter 59
- Chapter 60
- Chapter 61
- Chapter 62
- Chapter 63
- Chapter 64
- Chapter 65
- Chapter 66
- Chapter 67
- Chapter 68
- Chapter 69
- Chapter 70
- Chapter 71
- Chapter 72
- Chapter 73
- Chapter 74
- Chapter 75
- Chapter 76
- Chapter 77
- Epilogue
- About the Author
‘I just haven’t had anything to eat in a while,’ she says and reaches for her water glass.
‘Here, take this,’ Karl says and pulls a half-eaten chocolate bar out of his pocket. ‘It’s important to eat when you—’
‘Shall we keep going?’ She cuts him off loudly with a nod to Sören Larsen.
And while her mind races on, she watches the fourth video start up and hears Billy Formby’s affected voice fill the room again.
*
‘Interview with Lena Johanson, 4 May, 3.20 a.m. Are you ready to hear the charges against you?’
No answer.
‘You’ve had a few days to think since we last talked. I assume you’ve come up with a defence? Have you?’
A slow headshake.
‘Please, Billy . . .’
‘You should probably start preparing. But maybe it’ll be easier for you when you know exactly what you’re accused of. Shall we begin?’
Luna’s head is bowed and her shoulders look like they’re shaking. No answer.
‘I asked if you’re ready to begin. You have to answer me when I ask you something, Mummy, dearest. Are you ready?’
A barely perceptible movement of her head.
‘Yes,’ Luna replies faintly.
‘The first charge is actually the lesser one. That’s good news, right?’
This time, he doesn’t wait for a reply, just carries right on. He sounds calm again now. Almost like he’s intoning the words.
‘Giving a child up for adoption is not an unforgivable sin. You fucked around and got knocked up at fifteen. Of course you didn’t want to be a mother at that age. It was careless, but not something I’m going to judge you for. Do you understand that?’
She makes no reply. Billy doesn’t say anything, either. The silence seems to stretch out endlessly until Luna eventually capitulates again.
‘I understand,’ she says.
‘Good, then let’s move on. When you give up a child, it’s important to make sure the adoptive parents are . . . how to put it . . . good people. Did you do that?’
At that, Luna raises her head and briefly looks straight into the camera. Her face is swollen, and her eyes look oddly vacant. Then she lowers her eyes again. Her voice weak and dejected.
‘I was never told where you ended up. Everything was arranged by . . . others.’
He attempts a laugh. It sounds more like barking.
‘By others, you say? Are you referring to your family, or maybe Social Services?’
‘I don’t know who decided what, Billy. Honestly. I was completely . . . everything was so . . . I was just a child myself, for God’s sake.’
Luna’s voice breaks and another barking laugh is heard.
‘So that’s your defence? You were a child yourself? That was the reason you never bothered to find out where I ended up?’
No answer.
‘Then let me fill you in. About where I was sent. About who raised your child. Would you like to know?’