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Chapters (41)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Nadim Rub’s Most Magnificent Deception
  4. The Alchemic Conception of
  5. The Puppy Love of Parvez Khan
  6. The Crushed Rose Petals of a
  7. The Relative Cost of Gold
  8. The Beginning of the Double Life
  9. The Triumphant Return of Ricky
  10. Of Sunflowers and Sunny Side Ups
  11. A Glorious Spring Wedding for
  12. The Importance of Not Forgetting to
  13. The Middle-Naming of
  14. The Married Life of Ricky Karim and
  15. The Musical Memories of Sharif Khan
  16. The Balti Ballads of Tooting Broadway
  17. Parvez Khan Mourns the Loss of Love
  18. Shona Khan Discovers Photos
  19. The Octopus in the Garage
  20. The Academic Pursuits of Omar Khan
  21. Between Greek Tragedy and
  22. The Balti Ballads Play Brick Lane
  23. The Trouble with December Evenings
  24. Châteauneuf du Pape in a
  25. Burnt Cookies and Driving Lessons
  26. Becoming Accustomed to a Face
  27. Ricky-Rashid Makes a Damning Discovery
  28. Shona Khan Makes a Damning Discovery
  29. Sharif Khan Meets an Angel in Tennis Shoes
  30. The Romantic Memories of Sharif Khan
  31. Omar Khan Celebrates May Day in Oxford
  32. Mrs Henna Karim Extends a
  33. The Dhaka Tea Party
  34. A Performance, a Bookmark and a
  35. Sharif Khan and the Terrifying Truth
  36. Won’t Let Us Have a Breakdown
  37. Confessions Across a Hospital Bed
  38. The Mother and Child Reunion
  39. Party in the Park
  40. Acknowledgements
  41. AN INTERVIEW

Henna planned and hoped to get pregnant as quickly as possible once Rashid was willing to start marital relations with her. Her attempt at marriage as a way to avoid education had not succeeded; she had been unwillingly forced to continue with her lessons, and although her only interest was in the dramatic arts, she had eventually learned to read and write in both Bangla and Urdu, to converse inefficiently in English, and been given a reluctant grounding in maths and the sciences. Although privately educated by necessity, like any other schoolgirl she was made to take public examinations. She was anxious about the results, not because she might have done badly, but because she was vain enough to worry that she might have done well - although with her committed laziness such fears were ungrounded. She certainly didn’t want sparkling grades, which would doubtless lead to the indefinable horror of further education that Rashid had been undertaking. Henna knew that motherhood would succeed where marriage alone could not. She knew self-interestedly that bearing Rashid’s child would keep her in her cosseted position, and that once she was a mother, there would be no more forcing her to stay at the dull books. She would simply hand the child over to the nanny and then start training for her dramatic career in earnest.

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Lying back on the same four-poster bed on which, years before, she had unsuccessfully faked the reading of a poem from an upside-down book, Henna surreptitiously glanced at her wristwatch from over Rashid’s straining shoulders. She decided to try a different sort of faking altogether to encourage her monotonously pumping husband to climax before she died of boredom or, worse, missed her favourite radio drama. This time, at least, Henna’s performance was successful, and she was rewarded with Rashid finishing the job with much greater efficiency than he had hitherto shown, for which she showed a vocal appreciation that although insincere was almost kindly meant. Rashid’s pride in accomplishment, that he had finally managed to make his wife enjoy the act of physical love, was dwarfed a few weeks later by his further pride in achievement, that Henna had conceived and was pregnant with their first, and what she was later to ensure would be their only, child.