Back Bitter Sweets
Chapters (41)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Nadim Rub’s Most Magnificent Deception
  4. The Alchemic Conception of
  5. The Puppy Love of Parvez Khan
  6. The Crushed Rose Petals of a
  7. The Relative Cost of Gold
  8. The Beginning of the Double Life
  9. The Triumphant Return of Ricky
  10. Of Sunflowers and Sunny Side Ups
  11. A Glorious Spring Wedding for
  12. The Importance of Not Forgetting to
  13. The Middle-Naming of
  14. The Married Life of Ricky Karim and
  15. The Musical Memories of Sharif Khan
  16. The Balti Ballads of Tooting Broadway
  17. Parvez Khan Mourns the Loss of Love
  18. Shona Khan Discovers Photos
  19. The Octopus in the Garage
  20. The Academic Pursuits of Omar Khan
  21. Between Greek Tragedy and
  22. The Balti Ballads Play Brick Lane
  23. The Trouble with December Evenings
  24. Châteauneuf du Pape in a
  25. Burnt Cookies and Driving Lessons
  26. Becoming Accustomed to a Face
  27. Ricky-Rashid Makes a Damning Discovery
  28. Shona Khan Makes a Damning Discovery
  29. Sharif Khan Meets an Angel in Tennis Shoes
  30. The Romantic Memories of Sharif Khan
  31. Omar Khan Celebrates May Day in Oxford
  32. Mrs Henna Karim Extends a
  33. The Dhaka Tea Party
  34. A Performance, a Bookmark and a
  35. Sharif Khan and the Terrifying Truth
  36. Won’t Let Us Have a Breakdown
  37. Confessions Across a Hospital Bed
  38. The Mother and Child Reunion
  39. Party in the Park
  40. Acknowledgements
  41. AN INTERVIEW

Shona ruffled his hair affectionately. ‘It’s enough to be clever, darling. You don’t have to be modest, too.’ The phone rang, and they both jumped. ‘I’ll get it,’ said Shona quickly; Dermot was uncharacteristically early. But Omar was too quick for her. ‘Hello, Karim residence,’ he said. ‘Oh, all right, mate!’ he answered in delight on recognizing the voice. ‘Thought it might be you. Hold on, I’m taking it in the other room.’

‘Is it Sharif?’ asked Shona, as he put the phone down and headed to Rashid’s office.

‘Nope, Jim from college. Calling from Portugal,’ Omar answered briefly over his shoulder.

Shona sighed. While they were gossiping about girls and suchlike, Dermot would call and not get through. Oh well, she’d text him and arrange another time. Glancing at Omar’s notes, she thought about what he’d said. Perhaps she had never learned to dissemble, to pretend, to play-act, as she knew she did so effectively; perhaps it had always been with her, part of her heritage from her duplicitous mother and bigamous father, and she had just needed to be exposed to the right stimuli to discover it for herself. She couldn’t claim to have been taught to behave this way; it was the way she had always been. Or was deception just another language she’d been taught, along with Urdu, Bangla and English? Was it something that could be unlearned, or was it part of her? Maybe I could learn something new, to replace it, thought Shona; I’m a language teacher, so why can’t I teach Amma, and Papa, and me to learn a new language, a new way of speaking, of behaving. She sighed again; how vain she was, as though she believed she really could intellectualize away adultery; it was one of the oldest sins, and one that they were all three guilty of, and it was what had caused this convoluted turn of events. And yet, she was still trying to keep her secret hidden. Because it would be better for the boys, she told herself. Her throat suddenly felt very dry.