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Contents ( 80)
  1. Before the Crown
  2. FLORA HARDING
  3. Chapter 1
  4. Windsor Castle, December 1943
  5. Chapter 2
  6. Chapter 3
  7. Chapter 4
  8. Chapter 5
  9. Chapter 6
  10. Chapter 7
  11. Chapter 8
  12. Chapter 9
  13. Chapter 10
  14. Chapter 11
  15. Chapter 12
  16. Cairo, April 1944
  17. Chapter 13
  18. Chapter 14
  19. London, 8 May 1945
  20. Chapter 15
  21. Chapter 16
  22. Buckingham Palace, January 1946
  23. Chapter 17
  24. Chapter 18
  25. Chapter 19
  26. Chapter 20
  27. Chapter 21
  28. Germany, Schloss Salem, April 1946
  29. Chapter 22
  30. Chapter 23
  31. Café de Paris, Monte Carlo, April 1946
  32. Chapter 24
  33. Buckingham Palace, May 1946
  34. Chapter 25
  35. Balmoral Castle, August 1946
  36. Chapter 26
  37. Chapter 27
  38. Chapter 28
  39. Chapter 29
  40. London, October 1946
  41. Chapter 30
  42. Portsmouth, 1 February 1947
  43. Chapter 31
  44. South Africa, February 1947
  45. Chapter 32
  46. Chapter 33
  47. London, May 1947
  48. Chapter 34
  49. Chapter 35
  50. Chapter 36
  51. Chapter 37
  52. London, June 1947
  53. Chapter 38
  54. Chapter 39
  55. London, July 1947
  56. Chapter 40
  57. Buckingham Palace, July 1947
  58. Chapter 41
  59. London, July 1947
  60. Chapter 42
  61. Balmoral Castle, August 1947
  62. Chapter 43
  63. London, October 1947
  64. Chapter 44
  65. Chapter 45
  66. Buckingham Palace, November 1947
  67. Chapter 46
  68. Chapter 47
  69. London, November 1947
  70. Chapter 48
  71. Buckingham Palace, November 1947
  72. Chapter 49
  73. Buckingham Palace, November 1947
  74. Chapter 50
  75. Kensington Palace, 20th November 1947
  76. Chapter 51
  77. Buckingham Palace, 20th November 1947
  78. Acknowledgements
  79. About the Author
  80. About the Publisher

He still hasn’t said anything of his feelings. Elizabeth just doesn’t know. Gossip has started about his frequent visits to Buckingham Palace. It’s inevitable, her mother says. Someone has noticed his car coming and going, or perhaps one of servants has been indiscreet. It could even be someone within their social circle.

Ignore it, is her mother’s advice but the Queen doesn’t want there to be a story. She wants it to be a rumour that can just be dismissed.

It’s different for Elizabeth. It might be easier if she were sure of what Philip felt, but as it is, she feels exposed and raw. Only a week earlier, she was asked to open a factory. As soon as she got out of the car, she could see the public lined up to watch her walk to the entrance, their faces alight with avid curiosity.

‘Where’s Philip?’ they yelled.

Elizabeth was horrified. Her feelings for Philip are her own. She kept her expression blank with an effort but inside she was shaking with a mixture of horror, outrage, and disgust. How dare they ask her something so personal? How dared they?

‘Crawfie, it was horrible!’ Nearly in tears, she had told her governess what had happened when she got back to the palace.

Crawfie tried to convince her that the crowd wasn’t aggressive or rude or as threatening as they appeared. ‘I know it seems intrusive, but they don’t mean any harm,’ she said. ‘They’re just cheerful and interested.’

It didn’t feel like that to Elizabeth. It felt as if the people leaning over the barriers and asking about Philip had pushed into her mind and smeared grubby hands all over her most private thoughts.

Her feelings for Philip are hers. They don’t belong to anyone else. Those insensitive questions about him have tarnished something precious to her. Now Elizabeth can’t bear the thought of going out and being exposed to similar questions.

She isn’t a fool. She suspects the reason she found the calls about Philip’s whereabouts so offensive is that she didn’t know the answer. She didn’t know where Philip was. She doesn’t know what he feels. He comes to supper at the palace. He is charming. He makes her feel happy.

But what does he feel?

Determinedly, Elizabeth pushes the memory of that disastrous factory visit from her mind. She is not at the factory now and there are no crowds shouting questions at her. She is with Philip and he is holding her close and that is all that matters. His cheek is almost, almost, resting on her hair and she can see the pulse beating steadily beneath his ear, where his jaw meets his throat. Elizabeth lets herself relax against him. The party has receded and it is as if the two of them are quite alone, dancing in a bubble of air.

When the music ends, Philip doesn’t let her go immediately. Slowly she lifts her eyes and they look at each other, still mid sway.