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Contents ( 80)
  1. Before the Crown
  2. FLORA HARDING
  3. Chapter 1
  4. Windsor Castle, December 1943
  5. Chapter 2
  6. Chapter 3
  7. Chapter 4
  8. Chapter 5
  9. Chapter 6
  10. Chapter 7
  11. Chapter 8
  12. Chapter 9
  13. Chapter 10
  14. Chapter 11
  15. Chapter 12
  16. Cairo, April 1944
  17. Chapter 13
  18. Chapter 14
  19. London, 8 May 1945
  20. Chapter 15
  21. Chapter 16
  22. Buckingham Palace, January 1946
  23. Chapter 17
  24. Chapter 18
  25. Chapter 19
  26. Chapter 20
  27. Chapter 21
  28. Germany, Schloss Salem, April 1946
  29. Chapter 22
  30. Chapter 23
  31. Café de Paris, Monte Carlo, April 1946
  32. Chapter 24
  33. Buckingham Palace, May 1946
  34. Chapter 25
  35. Balmoral Castle, August 1946
  36. Chapter 26
  37. Chapter 27
  38. Chapter 28
  39. Chapter 29
  40. London, October 1946
  41. Chapter 30
  42. Portsmouth, 1 February 1947
  43. Chapter 31
  44. South Africa, February 1947
  45. Chapter 32
  46. Chapter 33
  47. London, May 1947
  48. Chapter 34
  49. Chapter 35
  50. Chapter 36
  51. Chapter 37
  52. London, June 1947
  53. Chapter 38
  54. Chapter 39
  55. London, July 1947
  56. Chapter 40
  57. Buckingham Palace, July 1947
  58. Chapter 41
  59. London, July 1947
  60. Chapter 42
  61. Balmoral Castle, August 1947
  62. Chapter 43
  63. London, October 1947
  64. Chapter 44
  65. Chapter 45
  66. Buckingham Palace, November 1947
  67. Chapter 46
  68. Chapter 47
  69. London, November 1947
  70. Chapter 48
  71. Buckingham Palace, November 1947
  72. Chapter 49
  73. Buckingham Palace, November 1947
  74. Chapter 50
  75. Kensington Palace, 20th November 1947
  76. Chapter 51
  77. Buckingham Palace, 20th November 1947
  78. Acknowledgements
  79. About the Author
  80. About the Publisher

Margaret pouts a little. ‘Don’t you ever get tired of being dutiful, Lil? I’m sure it’s very terrible, but how would it change anything if we stayed in Buckingham Palace shivering along with everyone else? Besides, Papa says the government wants us to go to South Africa and bolster the Empire or whatever, so we’re just doing what we’re asked to do. And if we have to go, we might as well enjoy ourselves.’

She settles herself more comfortably against Elizabeth’s pillows. ‘You’re just sulking because you won’t see Philip for a while.’

‘More than a while. We’ll be gone three months!’

‘It’s not that long.’

‘It is when you’re in love,’ Elizabeth says.

Margaret raises her brows. ‘Are you in love with Philip?’

‘Of course I am!’

‘It’s just that it’s hard to tell sometimes. You seem so cool about him.’

Cool? Elizabeth thinks about the heat that trembles and flares inside her whenever she looks at Philip’s mouth, about the way the merest brush of his hand leaves warmth simmering long after his touch.

Margaret wants her to swing around lamp posts and scatter rose petals as she runs singing through a meadow. She wants her to hang around Philip’s neck and shower him with kisses to prove her love.

But Elizabeth can’t do that. Her feelings for Philip are so strong that the only way she can control them is to bank them down, to bury them beneath a layer of cool composure. As it is, she is afraid they will spill over and leave her vulnerable to embarrassment and jeering.

To prurient speculation and avid public interest.

To Philip’s rejection.

That would be worst of all. She has been so careful not to make him feel awkward. Elizabeth fears that if he knew just how deeply she feels about him, he would regret asking her to marry him. When it comes down to it, they have made an arrangement. They have been clear with each other. It is not a love match. She saw the relief in Philip’s face when she told him she would make no messy emotional demands of him.

Very carefully, she sets Philip’s photo on the chest of drawers where a raised ridge has been added to stop items falling off when the ship tilts. The sleet is rattling against the porthole in a blur of white.

‘Philip and I don’t need to make a big show of how we feel,’ she tells her sister.

‘Well, as long as you know,’ Margaret says doubtfully. ‘I like Philip, but he can be a bit off-hand with you, I think. I’m not the only one who has noticed either. He’s not exactly devoted, is he? I can’t imagine him whispering sweet nothings in your ear.’

Nor can Elizabeth.

‘I like that he doesn’t paw me in public,’ she says. ‘I would hate it if he hung over me. It would be embarrassing.’

‘I just hope he’s more attentive behind closed doors, that’s all.’

Elizabeth doesn’t meet her sister’s gaze. She straightens the photo and lets her gaze rest on Philip’s face, on his mouth. How could she possibly explain to Margaret the dark knot of emotions that tangle around her whenever Philip is near? Desire and anticipation, nervousness and fear, guilt and exultation, all tumbling together to leave her edgy and unsure of everything but the fact that she loves him.