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Contents ( 80)
  1. Before the Crown
  2. FLORA HARDING
  3. Chapter 1
  4. Windsor Castle, December 1943
  5. Chapter 2
  6. Chapter 3
  7. Chapter 4
  8. Chapter 5
  9. Chapter 6
  10. Chapter 7
  11. Chapter 8
  12. Chapter 9
  13. Chapter 10
  14. Chapter 11
  15. Chapter 12
  16. Cairo, April 1944
  17. Chapter 13
  18. Chapter 14
  19. London, 8 May 1945
  20. Chapter 15
  21. Chapter 16
  22. Buckingham Palace, January 1946
  23. Chapter 17
  24. Chapter 18
  25. Chapter 19
  26. Chapter 20
  27. Chapter 21
  28. Germany, Schloss Salem, April 1946
  29. Chapter 22
  30. Chapter 23
  31. Café de Paris, Monte Carlo, April 1946
  32. Chapter 24
  33. Buckingham Palace, May 1946
  34. Chapter 25
  35. Balmoral Castle, August 1946
  36. Chapter 26
  37. Chapter 27
  38. Chapter 28
  39. Chapter 29
  40. London, October 1946
  41. Chapter 30
  42. Portsmouth, 1 February 1947
  43. Chapter 31
  44. South Africa, February 1947
  45. Chapter 32
  46. Chapter 33
  47. London, May 1947
  48. Chapter 34
  49. Chapter 35
  50. Chapter 36
  51. Chapter 37
  52. London, June 1947
  53. Chapter 38
  54. Chapter 39
  55. London, July 1947
  56. Chapter 40
  57. Buckingham Palace, July 1947
  58. Chapter 41
  59. London, July 1947
  60. Chapter 42
  61. Balmoral Castle, August 1947
  62. Chapter 43
  63. London, October 1947
  64. Chapter 44
  65. Chapter 45
  66. Buckingham Palace, November 1947
  67. Chapter 46
  68. Chapter 47
  69. London, November 1947
  70. Chapter 48
  71. Buckingham Palace, November 1947
  72. Chapter 49
  73. Buckingham Palace, November 1947
  74. Chapter 50
  75. Kensington Palace, 20th November 1947
  76. Chapter 51
  77. Buckingham Palace, 20th November 1947
  78. Acknowledgements
  79. About the Author
  80. About the Publisher

‘Oh, for God’s sake! It was just a bit of harmless fun. Nobody was hurt.’

‘I understand it caused a good deal of damage, not to mention embarrassment.’

‘No one was embarrassed,’ Philip insists, glowering, and Elizabeth looks him straight in the eye.

‘I’m embarrassed,’ she says. ‘My future husband, my future consort, thinks it’s funny to drink too much and throw smoke bombs around, not caring about anybody who might be shocked or inconvenienced. Of course I’m embarrassed, and the King is embarrassed, and you should be embarrassed too.’

‘Oh, right, so I can’t even have a good time with my friends anymore?’ Philip demands. ‘I’m dogged wherever I go by bloody reporters. I can’t do anything without that old monster Tommy Lascelles hauling me over the coals! What am I allowed to do, Elizabeth? Stand to attention like a stuffed dummy with my hands tied behind my back? What kind of life is that?

‘You knew what life as a member of the royal family would be,’ she points out. Philip’s anger is making her feel nauseous, but they need to have this out. She can’t back down now.

‘I didn’t know it would be as bad as this!’ Philip hunches a sullen shoulder. ‘I didn’t think it would be … like this. Stupid of me.’

Elizabeth’s hands are folded at her waist. She makes herself take a breath, keep her voice even. ‘Do you want to change your mind, Philip?’

‘I can’t, can I?’ He paces away from her, then back. ‘You saw all those presents. People have made sacrifices for us. We can hardly send them all back and say, sorry, we changed our minds. It’s all gone too far to stop now.’

It is not what Elizabeth wants to hear. All he needed to say was no, I haven’t changed my mind, but instead he is feeling trapped. If he could change his mind, he would: that’s what he is saying, and her throat burns with disappointment.

‘It would certainly be awkward,’ she says in a level voice even as the forbidden anger burns through her. ‘But it would be better than being trapped in a marriage you will regret. I thought we had an agreement, Philip,’ she goes on. ‘I know you don’t want to marry me. I know you don’t love me. You’ve never pretended you did, and I’ve appreciated your honesty. You’ve made it perfectly clear you wanted to marry me because I’m heir to the throne. You wanted the position. Well, this is the position.

‘No, wait,’ she says, lifting a hand as Philip opens his mouth to remonstrate. ‘Don’t say anything yet. Take a good look at yourself and what you want. Think what being married involves,’ she tells him, ‘because after 20th November, there will be no going back. There will be no divorce and no chance of one, and you won’t be able to follow your father’s example and lead a separate life that suits you. That is not going to happen,’ she says clearly, coldly, because that is more controllable than the anger roiling along her veins.