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Contents ( 80)
  1. Before the Crown
  2. FLORA HARDING
  3. Chapter 1
  4. Windsor Castle, December 1943
  5. Chapter 2
  6. Chapter 3
  7. Chapter 4
  8. Chapter 5
  9. Chapter 6
  10. Chapter 7
  11. Chapter 8
  12. Chapter 9
  13. Chapter 10
  14. Chapter 11
  15. Chapter 12
  16. Cairo, April 1944
  17. Chapter 13
  18. Chapter 14
  19. London, 8 May 1945
  20. Chapter 15
  21. Chapter 16
  22. Buckingham Palace, January 1946
  23. Chapter 17
  24. Chapter 18
  25. Chapter 19
  26. Chapter 20
  27. Chapter 21
  28. Germany, Schloss Salem, April 1946
  29. Chapter 22
  30. Chapter 23
  31. Café de Paris, Monte Carlo, April 1946
  32. Chapter 24
  33. Buckingham Palace, May 1946
  34. Chapter 25
  35. Balmoral Castle, August 1946
  36. Chapter 26
  37. Chapter 27
  38. Chapter 28
  39. Chapter 29
  40. London, October 1946
  41. Chapter 30
  42. Portsmouth, 1 February 1947
  43. Chapter 31
  44. South Africa, February 1947
  45. Chapter 32
  46. Chapter 33
  47. London, May 1947
  48. Chapter 34
  49. Chapter 35
  50. Chapter 36
  51. Chapter 37
  52. London, June 1947
  53. Chapter 38
  54. Chapter 39
  55. London, July 1947
  56. Chapter 40
  57. Buckingham Palace, July 1947
  58. Chapter 41
  59. London, July 1947
  60. Chapter 42
  61. Balmoral Castle, August 1947
  62. Chapter 43
  63. London, October 1947
  64. Chapter 44
  65. Chapter 45
  66. Buckingham Palace, November 1947
  67. Chapter 46
  68. Chapter 47
  69. London, November 1947
  70. Chapter 48
  71. Buckingham Palace, November 1947
  72. Chapter 49
  73. Buckingham Palace, November 1947
  74. Chapter 50
  75. Kensington Palace, 20th November 1947
  76. Chapter 51
  77. Buckingham Palace, 20th November 1947
  78. Acknowledgements
  79. About the Author
  80. About the Publisher

Sighing, she gropes around under the water for the sliver of soap, contemplating it glumly when she draws it out. Once, a new bar of soap was a pleasure: the smooth pristine weight of it, the creamy suds, the heady fragrance of lavender or rose or lily-of-the-valley. Nowadays, with rationing still in place, they must eke out every last piece until it is like this one: cracked and almost transparent, riven with brown lines, grudgingly producing a meagre lather, barely more than a smear.

Rather like her attempts at conversation. Everyone else seems to find talking so easy. She has observed them at parties, laughing and chattering and flirting, but she just can’t do it. She knows she comes across as stiff and stilted but she is shy, and her position only makes things worse. Nobody knows what to say to the future Queen and she doesn’t know what to say to them, so the whole business is wretchedly uncomfortable.

She usually ends up making a beeline for Porchey, who is always happy to talk horses.

But now there’s Philip, of course.

She hopes he’ll be there tonight. He can always make her laugh. He doesn’t make her feel boring or standoffish. Under his intent gaze she becomes intriguing instead of uptight, and the muscles of her face relax into a natural smile.

He won’t monopolise her. Elizabeth half wishes he would, but he is careful not to give rise to any gossip. If he talks to her, it is never for too long and if there’s dancing, he only dances with her once.

Elizabeth has to watch him charming another woman as they dance past, and that woman is always, always beautiful and sophisticated. The other woman knows how to make Philip laugh. She knows just what to say and how to say it, how to tilt her head and smile and slide a glance under her lashes.

Whenever Elizabeth watches that other woman, she has to remind herself to smile at her own partner. It didn’t take long before someone told her how ‘very close’ Philip had been with Osla Benning, who is exactly as beautiful and assured as the other women Philip asks to dance. Osla is married now, Elizabeth is glad to know. She has met Philip’s old friend Hélène, too. Bright, bubbly, pretty, friendly … Hélène is everything Elizabeth is not, and although she is also married with children, she inevitably makes Elizabeth feel gauche in comparison.

With another sigh, Elizabeth gets out of the bath and wraps herself in the towel Bobo has warmed for her. The Scotswoman has been with her since she was a tiny girl, so long that Elizabeth cannot remember Bobo’s real name.

Used to being dressed, she lets Bobo fuss around her, zipping her into the dress and twitching the skirt so it hangs properly.

‘It’s a lovely dress,’ Bobo says approvingly. ‘The blue is very nice on you.’ She bends to pick up a pair of shoes and move them close to Elizabeth’s stockinged feet. ‘What do you think of these shoes with it?’