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Contents ( 80)
  1. Before the Crown
  2. FLORA HARDING
  3. Chapter 1
  4. Windsor Castle, December 1943
  5. Chapter 2
  6. Chapter 3
  7. Chapter 4
  8. Chapter 5
  9. Chapter 6
  10. Chapter 7
  11. Chapter 8
  12. Chapter 9
  13. Chapter 10
  14. Chapter 11
  15. Chapter 12
  16. Cairo, April 1944
  17. Chapter 13
  18. Chapter 14
  19. London, 8 May 1945
  20. Chapter 15
  21. Chapter 16
  22. Buckingham Palace, January 1946
  23. Chapter 17
  24. Chapter 18
  25. Chapter 19
  26. Chapter 20
  27. Chapter 21
  28. Germany, Schloss Salem, April 1946
  29. Chapter 22
  30. Chapter 23
  31. Café de Paris, Monte Carlo, April 1946
  32. Chapter 24
  33. Buckingham Palace, May 1946
  34. Chapter 25
  35. Balmoral Castle, August 1946
  36. Chapter 26
  37. Chapter 27
  38. Chapter 28
  39. Chapter 29
  40. London, October 1946
  41. Chapter 30
  42. Portsmouth, 1 February 1947
  43. Chapter 31
  44. South Africa, February 1947
  45. Chapter 32
  46. Chapter 33
  47. London, May 1947
  48. Chapter 34
  49. Chapter 35
  50. Chapter 36
  51. Chapter 37
  52. London, June 1947
  53. Chapter 38
  54. Chapter 39
  55. London, July 1947
  56. Chapter 40
  57. Buckingham Palace, July 1947
  58. Chapter 41
  59. London, July 1947
  60. Chapter 42
  61. Balmoral Castle, August 1947
  62. Chapter 43
  63. London, October 1947
  64. Chapter 44
  65. Chapter 45
  66. Buckingham Palace, November 1947
  67. Chapter 46
  68. Chapter 47
  69. London, November 1947
  70. Chapter 48
  71. Buckingham Palace, November 1947
  72. Chapter 49
  73. Buckingham Palace, November 1947
  74. Chapter 50
  75. Kensington Palace, 20th November 1947
  76. Chapter 51
  77. Buckingham Palace, 20th November 1947
  78. Acknowledgements
  79. About the Author
  80. About the Publisher

‘I hoped it would be nice for you to have a word from home,’ Elizabeth says.

Home. That word always settles like a stone in the pit of Philip’s stomach. Everyone uses it so easily. Home. It has so many connotations of comfort and security, of familiarity and belonging. Somewhere you can be yourself, where you do not have to sing for your supper or watch what you say. At least, that is how Philip imagines a home. He hasn’t had one since he was a small boy in Paris.

Not that he will tell Elizabeth that. He wants her to think of him as strong and steadfast, not as a little boy longing for somewhere to belong.

‘It was indeed,’ he says instead, and she flushes a little with pleasure.

‘I’m glad. It’s good to feel that something I can do makes a difference. I feel so frustrated sometimes that I’m not allowed to do more for the war effort. I’ve asked Papa if I can volunteer for the ATS, but he thinks it’s safer for me to stay here, where all I can do is knit for the Wool Fund.’ She makes a face. ‘And I hate knitting! I do try, but I am very bad at it.’

Philip laughs. ‘All I can say is that the comforts we get – the socks and scarves and things – are all very welcome.’

‘Still, I wish I could do more. Other girls my age are out there, doing their bit.’

Philip thinks of the ruined streets, the houses where wallpaper flutters sadly from exposed walls. Of the grime and the grind of daily life and the looters lurking in the shadows. Of groping through the dark or tensing at the stutter of sirens breaking into their inhuman wail. Listening to the desperate fire of the anti-aircraft guns as the searchlights rake across the night sky. Worse, hearing the fiendish whistle of bombs falling and the eerie second of silence before the air explodes.

Once, he and his cousin David were weaving their way carelessly back from a nightclub when they came across a house that had suffered a direct hit only minutes before. They had gone to help but they had been drinking and had probably got in the way. Philip doesn’t remember much about it, only the sight of a disembodied hand lying as if discarded in the smoking rubble. One finger pointed right at him as if accusing him, though of what Philip couldn’t tell. For a moment he can almost smell the stink of smoke and terror.

He is not stumbling around a bombsite now, Philip reminds himself. He blinks himself back to the present – Windsor Castle, a drink in his hand, a princess to court – to find Elizabeth looking at him. Her eyes are very clear, very blue. They seem to see far more than they should.

He musters a smile. ‘Don’t wish to be out there. It isn’t safe.’

‘You’re out there.’