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Chapters (69)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. Prologue
  5. Chapter One
  6. Chapter Two
  7. Chapter Three
  8. Chapter Four
  9. Chapter Five
  10. Chapter Six
  11. Chapter Seven
  12. Chapter Eight
  13. Chapter Nine
  14. Chapter Ten
  15. Chapter Eleven
  16. Chapter Twelve
  17. Chapter Thirteen
  18. Chapter Fourteen
  19. Chapter Fifteen
  20. Chapter Sixteen
  21. Chapter Seventeen
  22. Chapter Eighteen
  23. Chapter Nineteen
  24. Chapter Twenty
  25. Chapter Twenty-One
  26. Chapter Twenty-Two
  27. Chapter Twenty-Three
  28. Chapter Twenty-Four
  29. Chapter Twenty-Five
  30. Chapter Twenty-Six
  31. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  32. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  33. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  34. Chapter Thirty
  35. Chapter Thirty-One
  36. Chapter Thirty-Two
  37. Chapter Thirty-Three
  38. Chapter Thirty-Four
  39. Chapter Thirty-Five
  40. Chapter Thirty-Six
  41. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  42. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  43. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  44. Chapter Forty
  45. Chapter Forty-One
  46. Chapter Forty-Two
  47. Chapter Forty-Three
  48. Chapter Forty-Four
  49. Chapter Forty-Five
  50. Chapter Forty-Six
  51. Chapter Forty-Seven
  52. Chapter Forty-Eight
  53. Chapter Forty-Nine
  54. Chapter Fifty
  55. Chapter Fifty-One
  56. Chapter Fifty-Two
  57. Chapter Fifty-Three
  58. Chapter Fifty-Four
  59. Chapter Fifty-Five
  60. Chapter Fifty-Six
  61. Epilogue
  62. Prologue
  63. Chapter One
  64. Acknowledgements
  65. Credits
  66. More from Claire Allan …
  67. About the Author
  68. Also by Claire Allan
  69. About the Publisher

He has sent me a message – told me he’ll be in Derry for about six and asked can we meet at seven. We’ve agreed to meet at Starbucks in the Foyleside Shopping Centre, where it’s big enough for me to slip off anonymously into the crowds afterwards.

I’m packing up my things, planning to go home first and touch up my make-up (simply because I still look like an extra from Night of the Living Dead). I’ll change into my jeans, a jumper. My comfy boots. I’ll wrap up so that I look the opposite of alluring. I’ll be wary.

I’m just about to leave, when my mobile rings. I consider rejecting the call, but my nosiness gets the better of me and I dig it out of my bag to see Jamesy Harte’s name flash up on the screen. My stomach lurches. I answer, not saying his name. I don’t want to draw any attention to the fact I’m talking to him – certainly not at work, anyway.

‘Ingrid?’ he says, a panicked tone to his voice. ‘I’ve just seen the Doherty piece online. Saw the Facebook comments. Ingrid. People want to track me down, Ingrid. They want to kill me! Why did you write it? I thought you believed me!’ His panic has quickly given way to disappointment.

I walk quickly from the office to where no one can hear me. ‘I can’t control what people say online. You must know that,’ I say. ‘And this was always going to get people wound up. You couldn’t have expected different?’

‘I expected you to tell people you believed I was set up,’ he says, his voice cracking.

‘I’m not here to tell people what to think,’ I say, but I know that will sound like nothing more than a cop-out to him. ‘I present the evidence and people can draw their own conclusions from that.’

‘So, you’ll publish my side of this as well, then?’ he says, his voice hopeful.

‘In my book, yes,’ I tell him.

There is a deep sigh. ‘No. No, Ingrid. That won’t help. I might not be the sharpest tool in the box, but I know books don’t write themselves overnight. Those words … what he said … He wishes I’d rot in hell, Ingrid. But I didn’t do it … and I’m so tired of people thinking I did. I’m not a monster.’

‘Jamesy, I know this must be really tough. But at the moment we have to go with how things stand. And the court did find you guilty.’ I feel cruel uttering those words, but it is the truth. I can’t change that.