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Chapters (69)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. Prologue
  5. Chapter One
  6. Chapter Two
  7. Chapter Three
  8. Chapter Four
  9. Chapter Five
  10. Chapter Six
  11. Chapter Seven
  12. Chapter Eight
  13. Chapter Nine
  14. Chapter Ten
  15. Chapter Eleven
  16. Chapter Twelve
  17. Chapter Thirteen
  18. Chapter Fourteen
  19. Chapter Fifteen
  20. Chapter Sixteen
  21. Chapter Seventeen
  22. Chapter Eighteen
  23. Chapter Nineteen
  24. Chapter Twenty
  25. Chapter Twenty-One
  26. Chapter Twenty-Two
  27. Chapter Twenty-Three
  28. Chapter Twenty-Four
  29. Chapter Twenty-Five
  30. Chapter Twenty-Six
  31. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  32. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  33. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  34. Chapter Thirty
  35. Chapter Thirty-One
  36. Chapter Thirty-Two
  37. Chapter Thirty-Three
  38. Chapter Thirty-Four
  39. Chapter Thirty-Five
  40. Chapter Thirty-Six
  41. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  42. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  43. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  44. Chapter Forty
  45. Chapter Forty-One
  46. Chapter Forty-Two
  47. Chapter Forty-Three
  48. Chapter Forty-Four
  49. Chapter Forty-Five
  50. Chapter Forty-Six
  51. Chapter Forty-Seven
  52. Chapter Forty-Eight
  53. Chapter Forty-Nine
  54. Chapter Fifty
  55. Chapter Fifty-One
  56. Chapter Fifty-Two
  57. Chapter Fifty-Three
  58. Chapter Fifty-Four
  59. Chapter Fifty-Five
  60. Chapter Fifty-Six
  61. Epilogue
  62. Prologue
  63. Chapter One
  64. Acknowledgements
  65. Credits
  66. More from Claire Allan …
  67. About the Author
  68. Also by Claire Allan
  69. About the Publisher

He knew Niall had made more of an effort with his, because Niall always made more of an effort with everything. He’d started to come out of his angry young man phase and instead had become an overachiever, much to his chagrin. Niall had written a letter to his future self, which Declan had rolled his eyes at. He’d put in a school report, his prefect badge, one of his old Action Men, a Liverpool FC key ring, and other bits and pieces.

As Declan tears open the brown paper around his brother’s box, he hopes he has remembered correctly. He hopes that there, among the items his brother could not give away but wanted to hide, he will find a small bracelet. Beads of brightly coloured plastic bound together on elastic. Worth nothing, but everything.

It was the reason Declan never believed Jamesy Harte was guilty. The reason he hated his brother, and hated himself even more. Because he’d been too scared, always, to confront Niall about it. To ask him what had happened. To tell his brother he hated him for bringing him to play at the den on the day they found Kelly. Because he’d realised that Niall had known where she was all along. He’d left her there. It broke him to think his brother was capable of such horror.

He could never be best friends with someone who had killed a person.

And how else would Niall have got the bracelet if he hadn’t been the one to kill her?

It was the day after she was found when everything had clicked into place for him. That was the day he realised what Niall had done. In that moment the bottom fell out of Declan’s world. Everything that he thought was true was destroyed.

He’d been watching TV. The police appealing for information. An image of the cheap, tacky plastic bracelet flashed on screen. A solemn voice intoned that it was believed Kelly was wearing the bracelet on the night she had gone missing, but it hadn’t been found on her body.

‘God love them, but it’s probably lying at the bottom of the reservoir,’ his mammy had said.

But Declan knew it wasn’t. He knew Niall had it. In his coat pocket. Declan had found it when he lifted his brother’s coat by accident the day after Halloween, slipping his hand into the pocket. He didn’t realise then, not yet, how important it was, or what it meant. Not until now, watching the TV.

He thought of the rage his brother was in on the night he ran off. The silent procession of his da, Niall and two of his friends back down the street an hour later.

His stomach lurched, right then, in front of the TV in his cosy living room, while he sat on the sofa beside his mammy. His brother upstairs.