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Chapters (69)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. Prologue
  5. Chapter One
  6. Chapter Two
  7. Chapter Three
  8. Chapter Four
  9. Chapter Five
  10. Chapter Six
  11. Chapter Seven
  12. Chapter Eight
  13. Chapter Nine
  14. Chapter Ten
  15. Chapter Eleven
  16. Chapter Twelve
  17. Chapter Thirteen
  18. Chapter Fourteen
  19. Chapter Fifteen
  20. Chapter Sixteen
  21. Chapter Seventeen
  22. Chapter Eighteen
  23. Chapter Nineteen
  24. Chapter Twenty
  25. Chapter Twenty-One
  26. Chapter Twenty-Two
  27. Chapter Twenty-Three
  28. Chapter Twenty-Four
  29. Chapter Twenty-Five
  30. Chapter Twenty-Six
  31. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  32. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  33. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  34. Chapter Thirty
  35. Chapter Thirty-One
  36. Chapter Thirty-Two
  37. Chapter Thirty-Three
  38. Chapter Thirty-Four
  39. Chapter Thirty-Five
  40. Chapter Thirty-Six
  41. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  42. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  43. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  44. Chapter Forty
  45. Chapter Forty-One
  46. Chapter Forty-Two
  47. Chapter Forty-Three
  48. Chapter Forty-Four
  49. Chapter Forty-Five
  50. Chapter Forty-Six
  51. Chapter Forty-Seven
  52. Chapter Forty-Eight
  53. Chapter Forty-Nine
  54. Chapter Fifty
  55. Chapter Fifty-One
  56. Chapter Fifty-Two
  57. Chapter Fifty-Three
  58. Chapter Fifty-Four
  59. Chapter Fifty-Five
  60. Chapter Fifty-Six
  61. Epilogue
  62. Prologue
  63. Chapter One
  64. Acknowledgements
  65. Credits
  66. More from Claire Allan …
  67. About the Author
  68. Also by Claire Allan
  69. About the Publisher

I can hear the rain battering off my window when I wake. The wind is howling, a vague hint of the banshee about it. I remember being terrified of that mythical Irish creature when I was small. It was one of the kids on the street, possibly even Niall or Declan, who first regaled us with stories of the wail of the banshee – a creature whose cry, carried on the wind, heralded a death.

The first time I’d watched the Disney movie Darby O’Gill and the Little People I had been frozen to the spot with fear by the appearance of the ghostly woman, ordering Darby to his demise.

‘You hear her, like a really loud wind in a storm, it means someone you love is going to die,’ I’d been told, and I’d lived in fear of every stormy day, every whistle of wind through the trees. How loud was loud enough to be the banshee? For a long time, I ran for cover every time I heard the wind roar.

The night Kelly died, the air was still.

I get up, pull open my bedroom curtains just as a fresh squall of rain and hail batters the window, startling me. It may be daytime, but it is still dull and grey outside. The kind of day that looks as if night could call at any second without any regard of the actual time. Cold radiates through the windowpanes, even though they are double-glazed. I shiver and close the curtains again.

I climb back under my duvet, reach for my phone and log in to social media. The word, it seems, is out. The death on the railway line is officially now a murder inquiry and the police have identified the victim as Jamesy Harte.

Ryan, or someone in The Chronicle, put the story live on the website at 7 a.m. and has shared it on Facebook. Even though it’s still early on a Sunday morning, a steady stream of comments have started to flood in. There is something so incredibly inhuman and cold about the number of people responding simply by clicking a Facebook emoji. The laughing-crying smiley face seems to be getting the most mileage.

The comments are filled with vitriol and triumphalism.

Make whoever did this first minister in Stormont. That’s how you deal with paedos.

Won’t be missed. Shoulda been strung up years ago.

Ha-ha! Hope he felt every second of it. Dirty bastard.

Thoughts and prayers with the Doherty family today – shame they had to wait twenty-five years for proper justice.

Yeeeooo! Best news I’ve heard all year.

Life should mean life. He never should’ve got out of jail.

May Jesus and the Blessed Virgin Mary have mercy on his soul, and the souls of those who did this.

– Mercy? He never offered wee Kelly any mercy. I hope he’s burning in hell right now.