Chapters (48)
- TITLE PAGE
- COPYRIGHT
- CONTENTS
- PROLOGUE
- ONE
- TWO
- THREE
- FOUR
- FIVE
- SIX
- SEVEN
- EIGHT
- NINE
- TEN
- ELEVEN
- TWELVE
- THIRTEEN
- FOURTEEN
- FIFTEEN
- SIXTEEN
- SEVENTEEN
- EIGHTEEN
- NINETEEN
- TWENTY
- TWENTY-ONE
- TWENTY-TWO
- TWENTY-THREE
- TWENTY-FOUR
- TWENTY-FIVE
- TWENTY-SIX
- TWENTY-SEVEN
- TWENTY-EIGHT
- TWENTY-NINE
- THIRTY
- THIRTY-ONE
- THIRTY-TWO
- THIRTY-THREE
- THIRTY-FOUR
- THIRTY-FIVE
- THIRTY-SIX
- THIRTY-SEVEN
- THIRTY-EIGHT
- THIRTY-NINE
- FORTY
- FORTY-ONE
- FORTY-TWO
- FORTY-THREE
- ABOUT THE AUTHOR
“Shut up.” I punched his thigh. I didn’t need to ask how he knew where to find me. For years, it’d been my secret spot—the one me and Mom used to go to on Sundays whenever we were letting Dad sleep in. I’d never told Dad about it because it was the only place where I had a memory of Mom that was all mine. All his memories were of the two of us or him watching her while she interacted with me. The one thing he couldn’t give me was what it was like when it was just the two of us. It was only a piece, a sliver, really—just a flash of me on the swing with the sky above me and the feel of her hand on my back for a brief second—but it was something, and it was where I came to feel close to her. I’d shared my spot with Dean after he’d lost his brother in a motorcycle accident, hoping it’d bring him the same peace and comfort it’d brought me.
“Did he tell you what happened?” I asked.
“He said that all of you were arguing and you’d gotten upset and left. Why don’t you tell me what happened?”
I shrugged, exhausted and spent from the day. “I found out Mom abandoned us, and Dad’s been keeping it a secret from me all day. That’s pretty much it.”
“Sounds like a lot to me,” he said.
Dad was supposed to be my rock through all of this. How was I supposed to deal with any of it if I couldn’t trust him? I didn’t have any experience with not being able to trust him. He had never come close to betraying me. It was one of the things I liked best about our relationship. “Dad promised to always tell me any information he had on Mom.”
“Promise not to bite my head off when I say this?”
I cocked my head to the side. “That depends.”
“You’re not going to like it, but you might have to cut him a break on this one. It’s not like he waited weeks to tell you. I mean, you didn’t even give him a day. Those are pretty high standards, don’t you think?” He squeezed my arm, pretending he was going to pinch me until I couldn’t help but giggle. “My two cents?” I nodded. “Maybe you’re mad at your dad because you got left out of an important moment this morning? I totally get that, and, honestly, I don’t know why I didn’t think to wake you up. I should have, so if you’re going to be mad at him, then you’re going to have to be mad at me too.” He smiled at me while he shrugged. “Sorry.”
“Did I miss anything else?” I asked.