Chapters (47)
- Cover
- What We Carry
- Copyright
- Dedication
- WHAT WE CARRY
- Late October
- Dust
- If This Is Paradise
- What Could Happen
- After Twelve Days of Rain
- Aphasia
- Graveyard at Hurd’s Gulch
- What We Carry
- The Job
- For the Sake of Strangers
- What I Wouldn’t Do
- Singing Back the World
- Balance
- SMALL GODS
- For My Daughter Who Loves Animals
- Planning the Future
- Finding What’s Lost
- Homecoming
- The Aqueduct
- Graffiti
- Twelve
- Matinee
- The Ebony Chickering
- Small Gods
- Family Reunion
- Each Sound
- AS IT IS
- As It Is
- Fast Gas
- The Thief
- Landrum’s Diner, Reno
- Sunday Radio
- Enough Music
- Kaleidoscope
- This Close
- Afterwards
- 2 AM
- The Lovers
- Kissing
- Acknowledgments
- About the Author
- BOA EDITIONS, LTD.
earrings and a shaved head. They are happy.
After school they do their homework together,
stretched out on her bed, the door open
to the edge of the legal limit.
Every history question finished deserves
a kiss. They’re embarrassed by the names
they’ve invented for each other,
by their tenderness. Toward evening
they watch MTV, mute the volume
during the commercials and plan their future —
junior college, then marriage, then kids,
what they’ll take with them — his dog,
her rat. I’m happy for them, even knowing
what will happen — the last gift, the last
kiss, her huddled on her bed, blinded
by her own bright pain. And I can see clearly
the day she’ll walk away, keys on a ring,
a suitcase banging her legs.
Then the real work of motherhood will begin,
the job of waking into each morning, trusting.
Finding What’s Lost
In the middle of the poem my daughter reminds me
that I promised to drive her to the bus stop.
She waits a few beats then calls out the time.
Repeats that I’ve promised.
I keep the line in my head, repeat it under my breath
as I look for my keys, rummage through my purse,
my jacket pockets. When we’re in the car, I search
the floor for a Jack-in-the-Box bag, a ticket stub,
a bridge toll dollar, anything to write on.
I’m still repeating my line when she points
out the window and says “Look, there’s the poppy
I told you about,” and as I turn the corner I see it,
grown through a crack between the sidewalk and the curb.
We talk about it while I scan driveways for kids
on skateboards and bikes, while the old man who runs
the Rexall locks up for the night and a mangy dog
lifts a frail leg and sprays the side of a tree.
Then we talk about her history essay and her boyfriend,
and she asks again about summer vacation, if we’re
going somewhere or just staying home. I say
I don’t know and ask what she’d rather do, but by now
we’re at the bus stop and she leans over
and, this is so unlike her, brushes her lips
quickly against my cheek. Then, without looking back,
she’s out the door, and the line, the poem,
is gone, lost somewhere near 8th and G, hovering
like an orange flower over the gravel street.
Homecoming
At the high school football game, the boys
stroke their new muscles, the girls sweeten their lips
with gloss that smells of bubblegum, candy cane,
or cinnamon. In pleated cheerleader skirts
they walk home with each other, practicing yells,
their long bare legs forming in the dark.
Under the arched field lights a girl
in a velvet prom dress stands near the chainlink,
a cone of roses held between her breasts.
Her lanky father, in a corduroy suit, leans