Chapters (47)
- Cover
- What We Carry
- Copyright
- Dedication
- WHAT WE CARRY
- Late October
- Dust
- If This Is Paradise
- What Could Happen
- After Twelve Days of Rain
- Aphasia
- Graveyard at Hurd’s Gulch
- What We Carry
- The Job
- For the Sake of Strangers
- What I Wouldn’t Do
- Singing Back the World
- Balance
- SMALL GODS
- For My Daughter Who Loves Animals
- Planning the Future
- Finding What’s Lost
- Homecoming
- The Aqueduct
- Graffiti
- Twelve
- Matinee
- The Ebony Chickering
- Small Gods
- Family Reunion
- Each Sound
- AS IT IS
- As It Is
- Fast Gas
- The Thief
- Landrum’s Diner, Reno
- Sunday Radio
- Enough Music
- Kaleidoscope
- This Close
- Afterwards
- 2 AM
- The Lovers
- Kissing
- Acknowledgments
- About the Author
- BOA EDITIONS, LTD.
feet cupped like sleek hands praying
at the base of each other’s spines.
And when something lifts within her
toward a light she’s sure, once again,
she can’t bear, she opens her eyes
and sees his face is turned away,
one arm behind him, hand splayed
palm down on the mattress, to brace himself
so he can lever his hips, touch
with the bright tip the innermost spot.
And she finds she can’t bear it —
not his beautiful neck, stretched and corded,
not his hair fallen to one side like beach grass,
not the curved wing of his ear, washed thin
with daylight, deep pink of the inner body.
What she can’t bear is that she can’t see his face,
not that she thinks this exactly — she is rocking
and breathing — it’s more her body’s thought,
opening, as it is, into its own sheer truth.
So that when her hand lifts of its own volition
and slaps him, twice on the chest,
on that pad of muscled flesh just above the nipple,
slaps him twice, fast, like a nursing child
trying to get a mother’s attention,
she’s startled by the sound,
though when he turns his face to hers —
which is what her body wants, his eyes
pulled open, as if she had bitten —
she does reach out and bite him, on the shoulder,
not hard, but with the power infants have
over those who have borne them, tied as they are
to the body, and so, tied to the pleasure,
the exquisite pain of this world.
And when she lifts her face he sees
where she’s gone, knows she can’t speak,
is traveling toward something essential,
toward the core of her need, so he simply
watches, steadily, with an animal calm
as she arches and screams, watches the face that,
if she could see it, she would never let him see.
Kissing
They are kissing, on a park bench,
on the edge of an old bed, in a doorway
or on the floor of a church. Kissing
as the streets fill with balloons
or soldiers, locusts or confetti, water
or fire or dust. Kissing down through
the centuries under sun or stars, a dead tree,
an umbrella, amid derelicts. Kissing
as Christ carries his cross, as Gandhi
sings his speeches, as a bullet
careens through the air toward a child’s
good heart. They are kissing,
long, deep, spacious kisses, exploring
the silence of the tongue, the mute
rungs of the upper palate, hungry
for the living flesh. They are still
kissing when the cars crash and the bombs
drop, when the babies are born crying
into the white air, when Mozart bends
to his bowl of soup and Stalin
bends to his garden. They are kissing
to begin the world again. Nothing
can stop them. They kiss until their lips
swell, their thick tongues quickening
to the budded touch, licking up