Chapters (65)
- Cover
- Title Page
- Dedication
- Epigraph
- ONE
- First Kiss
- Stolen Moments
- Blues for Dante Alighieri
- What Was
- So What
- 31-Year-Old Lover
- Muse
- You Don’t Know What Love Is
- Blues for Roberto
- Ever After: A Paradelle
- Sonnenizio on a Line from Drayton
- Ex-boyfriends
- Dance
- TWO
- Death Poem
- Scary Movies
- Dead Girls
- Echo and Narcissus
- Eating Together
- Cat Poem
- Noir
- February 14
- And Then I Woke Up
- In Dreams
- The Work
- Fever Blues
- Washing
- THREE
- It
- Knowledge
- California Street
- The Way of the World
- Dear Sir or Madam
- One Nation Under God
- Chicken
- Missing Boy Blues
- Human Nature
- FOUR
- Lush Life
- Bad Girl
- ’Round Midnight
- South of the Border
- Body and Soul
- Blues for Robert Johnson
- This Poem Wants to Be a Rock and Roll Song So Bad
- Bugdom
- This Poem Is In Recovery
- FIVE
- Dear Reader
- On Knocking Over My Glass While Reading Sharon Olds
- Fuck
- Augury
- Proverbial
- Ceiling
- Conversation
- Romance
- Miniatures
- Kisses
- Acknowledgments
- Also by Kim Addonizio
note: The sonnenizio was invented in Florence in the thirteenth century by Vanni Fucci as an irreverent form whose subject was usually the impossibility of everlasting love. Dante retaliated by putting Fucci into the seventh chasm of the Inferno as a thief. Originally composed in hendecasyllabics, the sonnenizio gradually moved away from metrical constraints and began to tackle a wider variety of subject matter. The sonnenizio is fourteen lines long. It opens with a line from someone else’s sonnet, repeats a word from that line in each succeeding line of the poem, and closes with a rhymed couplet.
Ex-boyfriends
EX-BOYFRIENDS
They hang around, hitting on your friends
or else you never hear from them again.
They call when they’re drunk, or finally get sober,
they’re passing through town and want dinner,
they take your hand across the table, kiss you
when you come back from the bathroom.
They were your loves, your victims,
your good dogs or bad boys, and they’re over
you now. One writes a book in which a woman
who sounds suspiciously like you
is the first to be sadistically dismembered
by a serial killer. They’re getting married
and want you to be the first to know,
or they’ve been fired and need a loan,
their new girlfriend hates you,
they say they don’t miss you but show up
in your dreams, calling to you from the shoeboxes
where they’re buried in rows in your basement.
Some nights you find one floating into bed with you,
propped on an elbow, giving you a look
of fascination, a look that says I can’t believe
I’ve found you. It’s the same way
your current boyfriend gazed at you last night,
before he pulled the plug on the tiny white lights
above the bed, and moved against you in the dark
broken occasionally by the faint restless arcs
of headlights from the freeway’s passing trucks,
the big rigs that travel and travel,
hauling their loads between cities, warehouses,
following the familiar routes of their loneliness.
Dance
DANCE
When you are finally, magically, able to clone
yourself into several identical women,
so that each one can move toward a man
who’s been waiting for his turn
to come around for the first time, or maybe again,
won’t you be happy then,
all of you together in a lustrous ballroom,
each woman wearing her distinguishing number,
the judges scoring everyone the same, music spilling
from the bandstand, the men thrilled
to be near you, each one whispering
a different pet name, each one polishing
with his black shoes a perfect circle of floor
while he raises you up, holding your
hips in his hands, gazing at you with his brown
or mottled green eyes, looking down
with his startling blue ones, taking you into a corner
then spinning you out toward the center
where the light from the mirrorball
splinters over your skin, sidereal