Chapters (58)
- Cover
- Dedication
- CHAPTER ONE
- CHAPTER TWO
- CHAPTER THREE
- CHAPTER FOUR
- CHAPTER FIVE
- CHAPTER SIX
- CHAPTER SEVEN
- CHAPTER EIGHT
- CHAPTER NINE
- CHAPTER TEN
- CHAPTER ELEVEN
- CHAPTER TWELVE
- CHAPTER THIRTEEN
- CHAPTER FOURTEEN
- CHAPTER FIFTEEN
- CHAPTER SIXTEEN
- CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
- CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
- CHAPTER NINETEEN
- CHAPTER TWENTY
- CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
- CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
- CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
- CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
- CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
- CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
- CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
- CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
- CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
- CHAPTER THIRTY
- CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
- CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
- CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE
- CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
- CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
- CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
- CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
- CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
- CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE
- CHAPTER FORTY
- CHAPTER FORTY-ONE
- CHAPTER FORTY-TWO
- CHAPTER FORTY-THREE
- CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR
- CHAPTER FORTY-FIVE
- CHAPTER FORTY-SIX
- CHAPTER FORTY-SEVEN
- CHAPTER FORTY-EIGHT
- CHAPTER FORTY-NINE
- CHAPTER FIFTY
- CHAPTER FIFTY-ONE
- CHAPTER FIFTY-TWO
- RESOURCES
- ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
- ABOUT THE AUTHOR
- What’s next onyour reading list?
THIS IS BAD. I’m 99 percent sure that we just stole his sister’s car, which is extremely illegal. Even more illegal when you don’t have a driver’s license, which neither of us do. I fight the urge to call my mom. She’d probably just call the police or something, not to be mean, but just to have them find me and give me a ride back home. But that would probably be worse in the end. The way Ridley is white-knuckling the steering wheel is already freaking me out. I don’t know what he would do if we got pulled over. I don’t want to find out.
Suddenly, I feel very small. Very small and unprepared. Running away seemed like a good idea when I thought it meant crashing in Jayla’s basement for a day or two, or hiding out at Frankie’s apartment and still texting my mom good night even though she was definitely going to ground me.
But this, this is completely different. This is so much bigger than me. Bigger than us. These are real problems, with real consequences, and I am not equipped to handle this. A few weeks ago, I thought if I didn’t nail my audition, it would be the end of the world, but this night feels like it could actually be the end of my world, and that’s scaring the crap out of me.
“Ridley,” I say when I notice he’s heading toward the freeway. He’s been driving carefully until now, keeping to back roads and not going over thirty miles per hour. I can tell by the way he swerves and slows that we definitely shouldn’t be going freeway fast. Not to mention it will have actual traffic, even late on a weeknight like this. I need to stop this; this is a mistake.
“What?” he asks.
“Watch the road,” I say when he looks at me, but he stares at me for a beat too long anyway, and I feel like I’m going to throw up. “I was just going to say, don’t get on the freeway.”
“Why? It’s the fastest.”
Because we’ll probably die, I think, but instead I say, “We can go the back way, take Route 9 all the way out. We’ll see the coast and be low profile. What if your dad already called the police or something?” It bothers me, the ease with which I lie now. I’ve had a lot of practice since I met Ridley. I kind of hate that.
“Smart.” He flicks on his turn signal and follows the Route 9 sign. I wait until we’re a little farther out of town, driving through the woods on some back roads, to try again.