Back This Is My America
Chapters (58)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. READY. SET. GO.
  4. WHAT HAD HAPPENED
  5. THE APPLE OF OUR EYE
  6. MISSION
  7. THE ODD COUPLE
  8. FLESH AND BLOOD
  9. THE FAST AND
  10. RIGHT TO REMAIN SILENT
  11. GUILTY…UNTIL
  12. POLICE STATE
  13. FAMILY MATTERS
  14. PAST IS ALWAYS PRESENT
  15. GOTCHA!
  16. LIKE FATHER, LIKE SON
  17. RUBY BRIDGES BRAVE
  18. VIGILANTES GET ISH DONE
  19. DON’T FREEZE
  20. BABY GOT BACK BURNERS
  21. SNITCHES GET STITCHES
  22. EACH ONE TEACH ONE
  23. WELL, I’LL BE DAMNED
  24. OUTLAWZ
  25. FUNNY THING
  26. TRUTH SERUM
  27. AT A CROSSROADS
  28. NO DISRESPECT
  29. RECEIPTS
  30. PLUS-ONE
  31. CRASH AND BURN
  32. WE GOT A SITUATION
  33. IF IT WALKS LIKE
  34. GUESS WHO’S COMING
  35. AMERIKKKA
  36. UNTHINKABLE
  37. TAKING CHANCES
  38. ONE DAY AT A TIME
  39. EAGLE HAS LANDED
  40. LET THE SAINTS SAY AMEN
  41. WILL WE EVER BE
  42. SECRETS DON’T STAY
  43. SKELETON IN THE CLOSET
  44. KILL TWO BIRDS
  45. I AIN’T NEVER SCARED
  46. PILLAR OF SALT
  47. COMING HOME
  48. ALL OUT OF OPTIONS
  49. IT GETS WORSE
  50. RELIEF AND PAIN
  51. THE TRUTH SHALL
  52. X FACTOR
  53. TWO MONTHS LATER
  54. Author’s Note
  55. ADDITIONAL RESOURCES
  56. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  57. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  58. What’s next onyour reading list?

Cameras clicking, reporters yelling questions, but they’re overtaken by the shouts of people chanting, Justice. Justice. Justice.

I’m soaring inside. The word rattles through my body. Daddy lifts my hands up with his. Then Mr. Jones and Steve take the mic. We drop back, and our security guards escort us away as Innocence X takes more questions, holding court with the media now, so we can escape without anyone following. Mr. Jones has them captivated.

I hold my breath, waiting until Daddy sees our surprise.

He stumbles toward it, speechless. Mama passes me a knowing glance. All my comments over the years, I swallow up because she was right. The look on Daddy’s face to see his old Buick, just like the last day he drove it—it’s priceless.

Daddy’s car is polished clean, parked on the side of the courthouse in a private spot.

Mama hands the keys over to him. He shakes his head. “I haven’t driven in years.”

He hands me the keys. I refuse. So does Jamal.

Seeing Daddy drive us home is just as meaningful to us. Daddy clears his throat as he sits in the driver’s seat and we all pile in, waiting for him to turn the ignition. I can feel he’s nervous that it might not work, that the moment will fall apart. Like everything else.

Daddy waits another minute, then turns the key. The engine revs, then starts purring. Daddy starts out slow, cautious. When we reach the highway toward Crowning Heights, we can see him relax. No longer looking over his shoulder. He lets out a laugh, a great belting laugh as he grips the steering wheel at ten and two, like he’s just learning how to drive again. Corinne is giggling watching him. He looks in the rearview mirror, and our eyes meet. I don’t say anything when I see that Daddy’s laughing, but tears are running down his face.

It’s all real. We can let it out. We’re holding on to each other, windows rolled down, letting the wind whip on us as Daddy drives us home.

For the first time, I allow myself to shut the worrying away. There’re still some uncertainties, for sure, but the most deadly countdown has ended. With justice secured for my father, I’m finally free, too.