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Were we responsible? Logic says not. But logic goes only so far, it seems. And now that wind is here again. And if we do not obey its call, then whom will it choose to take in our place?
There are no trees on the Butte de Montmartre. For that at least I am grateful. But the December wind still smells of death, and no amount of frankincense can sweeten its dark seduction. December was always a time of darkness; of ghosts holy and unholy; of fires lit in defiance against the dying of the light. The gods of Yule are stern and cold; Persephone is trapped underground and spring is a dream a lifetime away.
V’là l’bon vent, v’là l’joli vent
V’là l’bon vent, ma mie m’appelle—
And in the bare streets of Montmartre, the Kindly Ones still roam abroad, shrieking their defiance to the season of goodwill.
2
Tuesday, 11th December
AFTER THAT IT came easily. She told me their little story in full: the chocolate shop in Lansquenet; the scandal that followed; the woman who died; then Les Laveuses, the birth of Rosette, and the Kindly Ones who had tried and failed to take her away.
So that’s what she fears. Poor little girl. Don’t think that because there’s something in this for me that I am entirely heartless. I listened to her disjointed tale; held her when it became too much; stroked her hair and dried her tears – which is more than anyone did for me when I was sixteen and my world collapsed.
I reassured her as well as I could. Magic, I said, is a tool of Change; of the tides that keep the world alive. Everything is linked together; an evil done on one side of the world is balanced by its opposite on the other. There is no light without dark; no wrong without right; no injury without revenge.
As for my own experience—
Well, I told her as much as she needed to know. Enough to make us conspirators; to link us in remorse and guilt; to sever her from the world of light and draw her gently into the darkness—
In my case, as I said, it began with a boy. It ended with one, too, as it happens; for if hell has no fury like a woman scorned, then there’s nothing on earth like a cheated witch.
It went pretty well for a week or two. I queened it over the other girls, enjoying my new-found conquest and the sudden status I had achieved. Scott and I were inseparable; but Scott was weak and rather vain – it’s what had made him so easy to enslave. And very soon the temptation to confide in his locker-room friends – to boast, to strut and, finally, to mock – became too much for him to resist.