Chapters (96)
At four o’clock I heard the sound of something moving in Anouk’s room. Rosette was awake. I went to see. And I found Anouk sitting on the floor in a badly drawn circle of yellow chalk. There was a candle burning beside her bed, and another one over Rosette’s crib, and in the warm yellow light she looked rosy and flushed.
‘We fixed it, Maman,’ she told me, bright-eyed. ‘We fixed it so that we could stay.’
I sat down beside her on the floor. ‘How?’ I said.
‘I told the wind we were staying here. I told it to take someone else instead.’
‘It isn’t that easy, Nanou,’ I said.
‘Yes it is,’ said Anouk. ‘And there’s something else.’ She gave me a smile of heartbreaking sweetness. ‘Can you see him?’ She pointed to something in the corner of the room.
I frowned. There was nothing. Well, almost nothing. A fugitive gleam – a flicker of candlelight on the wall – a shadow, something like eyes, a tail—
‘I don’t see anything, Nanou.’
‘He belongs to Rosette. He came on the wind.’
‘Oh, I see.’ I smiled. Sometimes Anouk’s imagination is so infectious that I find myself almost carried away, seeing things that cannot be there.
Rosette stretched out her arms and mewed.
‘He’s a monkey,’ said Anouk. ‘His name is Bamboozle.’
I had to laugh. ‘I don’t know how you think of these things.’ And yet even then I felt uneasy. ‘You know it’s just a game, right?’
‘Oh no, he’s real,’ said Anouk with a smile. ‘Look, Maman. Rosette sees him too.’
In the morning, the wind had dropped. An evil wind, a tornado, the locals said, felling trees and levelling barns. The newspapers called it a tragedy, and spoke of how, on New Year’s Eve, a branch from a tree had dropped on to a passing car as it drove through the village early that evening. Both driver and passenger had been killed – one of them a priest from Rennes.
An act of God, the papers said.
Anouk and I knew otherwise.
It was just an Accident, I repeated as she woke up crying night after night in our tiny flat in Boulevard de la Chapelle. Anouk, those things aren’t real, I said. Accidents happen. That’s all it was.
And as the year turned she began to believe. The nightmares stopped. She seemed happy again. But still there was something in her eyes – a shift from the summer child she was – something older, wiser, stranger. And now Rosette – my winter child – seeming more like Anouk day by day, imprisoned in her own little world, refusing to grow like other children; not speaking, not walking, but watching with those animal eyes . . .