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‘Well, the chocolaterie, for a start. The rent’s paid till the end of the year. But after that . . .’ She gave a sigh. ‘It won’t be easy making it work. And I can’t just take money from Thierry. He keeps offering, but it wouldn’t be fair. And I thought . . .’
Well of course I’d known there was something wrong. But I’d thought she was sad about Madame. Now I could see it was Thierry instead, and her worry that I might not fit in with their plan.
Some plan. I can see us now. Maman, Papa and the two little girls, like something out of a story by the Comtesse de Ségur. We’d go to church; eat steack-frites every day; wear dresses from Galeries Lafayette. Thierry would have a picture of us on his desk, a professional portrait, with Rosette and me in matching outfits.
Don’t get me wrong; I said he’s OK. But—
‘Well?’ she said. ‘Cat got your tongue?’
I bit a little piece from my croissant. ‘We don’t need him,’ I said at last.
‘Well, we need someone, that’s for sure. I thought at least you’d understand that. You need to go to school, Anouk. You need a proper home – a father—’
Don’t make me laugh. A father? As if. You choose your family, she always says, but what choice does she think she’s giving me?
‘Anouk,’ she said. ‘I’m doing it for you . . .’
‘Whatever.’ I shrugged and took my croissant out into the street.
8
Saturday,10th November
I DROPPED IN at the chocolaterie this morning and bought a box of liqueur cherries. Yanne was there, with the little one in tow. Though the shop was quiet, she looked harried, almost uncomfortable at seeing me, and the chocolates, when I tried them, were nothing special.
‘I used to make these myself,’ she said, handing me the cherries in a paper twist. ‘But liqueurs are so fussy, and there’s never the time. I hope you like them.’
I popped one into my mouth with well-feigned greed. ‘Fabulous,’ I said, through a sour paste of pickled cherry. On the floor behind the counter, Rosette was singing softly to herself, sprawled among a scatter of crayons and coloured paper.
‘Doesn’t she go to nursery school?’
Yanne shook her head. ‘I like to keep an eye on her.’