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I said that from the beginning, but apparently, no one took it seriously.
A mother’s love is singular, all encompassing.
There is no sharing.
I loved her the most. Period.
She was the favorite daughter.
Wherever she is, I hope she understands.
I doubt I’ll ever get to explain things to her.
I’ll be in a different place. Not here.
They’ll never be able to keep me here.
I’m street smart and beautiful. I’ll hire the best lawyer.
I’ll be back in Hollywood soon.
I’m destined to be a star.
DEAR READER LETTER
Years ago, just after my family and I moved to the West Coast, I was lucky to become friends with an amazing woman, Malibu City Council member and clinical psychologist Laura Rosenthal. As you may have guessed, Laura is the inspiration for the doctor character in THE FAVORITE DAUGHTER. One evening Laura joined us for dinner on a night my husband and I were discussing the baffling character traits of someone we knew. We just couldn’t figure this person out.
“Well, that sounds like a classic narcissist,” Laura said.
At that, the light bulb turned on and it has been shining brightly in both my imagination, and in real life, ever since.
Maybe you’re more aware of this than I was, but narcissists are everywhere in our society. Some estimate narcissists comprise 10 percent of the population and experts believe access to social media is creating more: Selfies are a narcissist’s best friend.
Although it may seem terrifying to some that I enjoy getting inside the heads of these types of people in my most recent novels, to me, it’s cathartic. Since first learning about narcissists from Laura all those years ago, I’ve somehow become blessed with a superpower: I can spot a narcissist. I’m not sure it’s a gift or a curse, but it’s true.
I also enjoy writing stories with unreliable narrators, and Jane Harris, like Paul Strom in BEST DAY EVER, is at her core a very unreliable person, among other things. These characters are obsessed with perception. Everything they show to the world is carefully calculated to portray perfection, even in their marriages, even when their lives may be falling apart. Narcissists suffer from a self-esteem problem coupled with low empathy. Failure is unacceptable, especially with their family, where they expect unflinching loyalty and subservience. Grandiose self-worth, vanity and entitlement are the foundation of the disorder. When any of this is challenged, rage is the result.