Back Nobody in Particular
Chapters (61)
  1. Copyright Notice
  2. Dedication
  3. AUTHOR’S NOTE
  4. ONE DANNI
  5. TWO ROSE
  6. THREE DANNI
  7. FOUR DANNI
  8. FIVE ROSE
  9. SIX ROSE
  10. SEVEN DANNI
  11. EIGHT ROSE
  12. NINE DANNI
  13. TEN ROSE
  14. ELEVEN ROSE
  15. TWELVE ROSE
  16. THIRTEEN ROSE
  17. FOURTEEN DANNI
  18. FIFTEEN DANNI
  19. SIXTEEN ROSE
  20. SEVENTEEN DANNI
  21. EIGHTEEN ROSE
  22. NINETEEN ROSE
  23. TWENTY DANNI
  24. TWENTY-ONE DANNI
  25. TWENTY-TWO DANNI
  26. TWENTY-THREE ROSE
  27. TWENTY-FOUR ROSE
  28. TWENTY-FIVE DANNI
  29. TWENTY-SIX ROSE
  30. TWENTY-SEVEN DANNI
  31. TWENTY-EIGHT ROSE
  32. TWENTY-NINE ROSE
  33. THIRTY DANNI
  34. THIRTY-ONE DANNI
  35. THIRTY-TWO ROSE
  36. THIRTY-THREE DANNI
  37. THIRTY-FOUR ROSE
  38. THIRTY-FIVE ROSE
  39. THIRTY-SIX DANNI
  40. THIRTY-SEVEN ROSE
  41. THIRTY-EIGHT DANNI
  42. THIRTY-NINE ROSE
  43. FORTY DANNI
  44. FORTY-ONE ROSE
  45. FORTY-TWO DANNI
  46. FORTY-THREE ROSE
  47. FORTY-FOUR DANNI
  48. FORTY-FIVE ROSE
  49. FORTY-SIX ROSE
  50. FORTY-SEVEN DANNI
  51. FORTY-EIGHT ROSE
  52. FORTY-NINE ROSE
  53. FIFTY ROSE
  54. FIFTY-ONE ROSE
  55. FIFTY-TWO DANNI
  56. EPILOGUE ROSE
  57. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  58. Also by Sophie Gonzales
  59. Praise Page
  60. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  61. Newsletter Sign-up

Meet her. I get to meet my girlfriend’s mother. How enchantingly, delightfully normal.

I’m in love at first sight with my brand-new reality.

My phone buzzes in my pocket. It’s Father. He and Mum are here to remind me of the other side of my new life, I suppose.

Let them.

“Say what you want to say.” I fold my hands on the table and survey my parents.

The headmaster let us use one of the school meeting rooms for this conversation, for the sake of privacy. It’s quite funny, really, because between the bare walls and the table and chairs, I couldn’t think of a more fitting location to be interrogated. Or, perhaps, let go from one’s job.

Father’s face reddens, then his shoulders drop. “How could you do something so idiotic and rash?” he asks me.

Can he truly still not know the answer to that? Has he not listened to a word I’ve said over the last several months? “I won’t spend the rest of my life terrified someone will see me kissing the person I love.”

Mum closes her eyes as though she’s praying for strength. “You just threw away your future. For a high school relationship.”

“I didn’t. I did it for love.”

She opens her eyes. They’re the same shade of green as mine. A little like looking into my reflection. “You think you love this girl?”

“I know I love her. I intend to be with her forever. But if, for whatever reason, I’m not, there will be another love, and I would’ve had to watch them be harmed, over and over again, in order to force my hand, or protect my name. I would have lived to regret it if I forced myself to go through with your version of my future.”

Father scoffs. “How whimsical.”

“Pardon?”

“Love?” he asks. “What of responsibility? And duty? What of growing up, and accepting that your country is worth a thousand times more than your selfish desires?”

I wonder if he’s thinking of the girl my aunt told me of long ago. The one who had the audacity to fail to live up to our country’s lofty moral standards. The one he loved despite it all. Who was sent where he could not follow.

Mum glances at him, and I think she disapproves of his wording. Does she know of the girl who came before her? Or perhaps she thinks he’s being too harsh on me.

“What is it our country needs?” I ask him. “To believe in a lie? Or do they need to feel they can trust we are who we say we are, even if our honesty risks our popularity? Perhaps,” I add, thinking of Danni, “there are even some people who haven’t felt particularly represented by our family, yet might feel differently now.”