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Chapters (51)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. One
  4. Two
  5. Three
  6. Four
  7. Five
  8. Six
  9. Seven
  10. Eight
  11. Nine
  12. Ten
  13. Eleven
  14. Twelve
  15. Thirteen
  16. Fourteen
  17. Fifteen
  18. Sixteen
  19. Seventeen
  20. Eighteen
  21. Nineteen
  22. Twenty
  23. Twenty-One
  24. Twenty-Two
  25. Twenty-Three
  26. Twenty-Four
  27. Twenty-Five
  28. Twenty-Six
  29. Twenty-Seven
  30. Twenty-Eight
  31. Twenty-Nine
  32. Thirty
  33. Thirty-One
  34. Thirty-Two
  35. Thirty-Three
  36. Thirty-Four
  37. Thirty-Five
  38. Thirty-Six
  39. Thirty-Seven
  40. Thirty-Eight
  41. Thirty-Nine
  42. Forty
  43. Forty-One
  44. Forty-Two
  45. Forty-Three
  46. Acknowledgments
  47. P.S. Insights, Interviews & More . . .*
  48. About the Author
  49. About the Book
  50. Also by Alison Gaylin
  51. About the Publisher

After a time, Nicola calmed herself. “I’m sorry,” she said. “But that just tickled me. The idea of your mom, hanging out with some criminal . . .”

Robin relaxed. “It is kind of ridiculous.”

“I mean, what? Was she pals with a drug dealer? I mean . . . could you even imagine your mom smoking a joint?”

Robin giggled. “Not a drug dealer, just—”

“A prostitute?”

They were both laughing now.

“Numbers runner? Carjacker? Hired killer?”

“Okay,” Robin said, laughing harder. “Okay, I see your point.” They laughed together for quite a while, Robin growing used to Nicola’s shrieks, along with the other cafeteria patrons. It did something, laughing with another person like that. It bonded you.

Once their laughter died down, Robin leaned in close and said it. “I spoke to this guy. He was making a podcast about these killings in the ’70s.”

“Quentin.” Nicola said the name like it was a rotten piece of meat in her mouth.

“You know him?”

“Met him. Don’t like him.” She leaned in. “Don’t trust him. At all.”

“Yeah?”

She glanced around the cafeteria and nodded slowly. “He said something, Robbie. It made me very suspicious.”

“What did he say?”

“Something about being in your parents’ neighborhood the night they were shot.”

“What? Are you serious?”

“I mean, he could have just been snooping, like journalists do, but—”

“Did you tell the police?”

She smiled. “I am the police.”

Robin stared at her. “You are?”

“Don’t look so surprised. Gray-haired ladies can be cops too. And yes. I spoke to an irritating detective from the Tarry Ridge Department.”

“Baus.”

“Bingo.”

“Try Morasco next time.”

“Thank you. That Baus is a jackass.”

Robin forked some scrambled eggs into her mouth and choked them down. She took in the tanned face. “I can’t believe you’re the same CoCo,” she said.

Nicola took a bite of her donut. “Life rides some of us harder than others.”

“No, no. I didn’t mean that,” Robin said. “I just can’t believe you’ve been in touch with my mom, after all these years.”

“I’m good at tracking people down,” she said. “And I’d never have let your mom slip away.”

Robin thought of her father, the anchor. “I’m sorry you couldn’t stay with us.”

“Listen, I never had any hard feelings over your dad not letting me, if that’s what you’re thinking.”

“Well . . .”

“If Mitchell hadn’t said no, I’d never have gone to the Police Academy, never would have made detective or met my darling ex-husband or seen as much of the world as I have,” she said. “Hell, if he’d said yes, he’d probably be long gone, and your mother and I would be in that house, pulling a Grey Gardens and . . .” She shook her head. “I’m an idiot,” she said quietly.

“What?”

“I’m so very sorry about your dad.”

“It’s okay.”