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Chapters (51)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. One
  4. Two
  5. Three
  6. Four
  7. Five
  8. Six
  9. Seven
  10. Eight
  11. Nine
  12. Ten
  13. Eleven
  14. Twelve
  15. Thirteen
  16. Fourteen
  17. Fifteen
  18. Sixteen
  19. Seventeen
  20. Eighteen
  21. Nineteen
  22. Twenty
  23. Twenty-One
  24. Twenty-Two
  25. Twenty-Three
  26. Twenty-Four
  27. Twenty-Five
  28. Twenty-Six
  29. Twenty-Seven
  30. Twenty-Eight
  31. Twenty-Nine
  32. Thirty
  33. Thirty-One
  34. Thirty-Two
  35. Thirty-Three
  36. Thirty-Four
  37. Thirty-Five
  38. Thirty-Six
  39. Thirty-Seven
  40. Thirty-Eight
  41. Thirty-Nine
  42. Forty
  43. Forty-One
  44. Forty-Two
  45. Forty-Three
  46. Acknowledgments
  47. P.S. Insights, Interviews & More . . .*
  48. About the Author
  49. About the Book
  50. Also by Alison Gaylin
  51. About the Publisher

Last night, Robin had woken up from a dream that felt more like a memory. Her mother sobbing behind her parents’ closed door, and her father urging her on. That’s it, Renee. That’s it. Let it out. Don’t run from it . . .

Had that really happened?

“Mind if I join you?”

Robin glanced up from her eggs and into those sharp blue eyes. “Nikki.”

“They told me your mom was resting, so I thought I’d grab a little bite.”

Robin gestured to the seat across from her and Nicola Crane eased into it, setting her tray down. Like Robin, she had a cup of coffee, along with a donut that looked like a reconfigured version of Robin’s wheat toast. She took a delicate bite. “I should have stopped at Dunkin’.”

Robin smiled. “Tell me about it.” She took a sip of her coffee. “So I remember you now.”

“You do?”

“Why didn’t you introduce yourself as CoCo?”

“Oh, I practically forgot about that nickname,” she said. “Only you called me that, you know.”

“Really?”

“I mean, I came up with it, of course, but you were the only one nice enough to call me by it. Everybody else thought it was silly. Your mother included.” She smiled, her teeth white against her tanned, lined skin. She wore jeans and a plaid shirt, rolled up to the elbows, revealing muscular arms, a long scar on one of them. To Robin, she had the look of a farmer or a rancher or maybe a lifelong surfer.

“How did you know my mom?” Robin said.

Her bright eyes shimmered. “We were in a foster home together, years ago,” she said. “And then we reconnected once she’d settled down. She saved me from a terrible situation. Gave me money for my education. Got me on my feet.”

“So you were friends,” she said, “when you both were kids.”

“Yes,” she said.

Robin took another sip of her coffee. She leaned forward, wanting to ask the question, but fearing the answer at the same time. “What was she like?”

“She was the kindest person I’d ever known.”

“Oh thank God.” Robin exhaled, relief spreading through her.

“Like there was ever a question?”

“It’s just . . . Someone asked me about her past recently. They thought she . . . Well obviously they had her confused with someone else.”

“I don’t understand.”

Robin swallowed. “They thought she’d associated with some unsavory types when she was a teenager.”

“Well,” Nicola said, winking, “they must have been talking about me.” She laughed—a startlingly loud, shrieking laugh that seemed to pop out of nowhere, far too hearty for the situation or the surroundings. Whereas Nicola’s smile was disarming, her laugh was downright off-putting, and Robin could feel people staring at them. Her face flushed a deep red. I am having breakfast in a hospital cafeteria with Robert De Niro from Cape Fear.