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Chapters (60)
  1. Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Personae
  4. I: Early Days
  5. One. Control
  6. Two. Doubt
  7. Three. Fate
  8. Four. Same
  9. Five. Fine Arts
  10. Six. In Loco Parentis
  11. Seven. Settling
  12. Eight. Neighbors
  13. Nine. Prospects
  14. Ten. The Lucky
  15. Eleven. Instruction
  16. Twelve. Same
  17. Thirteen. This Is a Pipe
  18. Fourteen. This Is Not a Pipe
  19. Fifteen. The Reason
  20. Sixteen. That Person
  21. Seventeen. Predictably
  22. II: Writing Teacher
  23. Eighteen. Early Poems
  24. Nineteen. Motivation
  25. Twenty. Allegory
  26. Twenty-One. Grief
  27. Twenty-Two. A Portrait
  28. Twenty-Three. Veils
  29. Twenty-Four. Soft Power
  30. Twenty-Five. Lists
  31. Twenty-Six. A Break
  32. Twenty-Seven. Elsewhere
  33. Twenty-Eight. Custom
  34. Twenty-Nine. Parity
  35. Thirty. Fortune
  36. III: Volta
  37. Thirty-One. Images
  38. Thirty-Two. A Very Interesting Young Man
  39. Thirty-Three. Letters
  40. Thirty-Four. We Prefer to See Ourselves Living
  41. Thirty-Five. Love
  42. Thirty-Six. The Iceberg
  43. IV: Your Best Reader
  44. Thirty-Seven. A Novelist
  45. Thirty-Eight. In Advance of the Broken Arm
  46. Thirty-Nine. Their Penultimate Encounter
  47. Forty. Détente
  48. Forty-One. Worlds
  49. Forty-Two. Recognition
  50. Forty-Three. Persistence
  51. Forty-Four. And Then
  52. Forty-Five. Mingling
  53. Forty-Six. You
  54. Forty-Seven. Persona
  55. Forty-Eight. Est et Non
  56. Forty-Nine. The Author
  57. Epilogue
  58. Afterword: The Libertine
  59. Acknowledgments
  60. About the Authors

On top of this, his meeting an hour ago with Don Hillary was total shit. All Hillary would say about Beans’s work was that he thinks Beans’s stuff is “very advanced,” that Beans is definitely onto some “high-level concepts.” He is looking forward to Beans’s “perspective.” Beans knows this is just code for Don Hillary hating everything he does, but for whatever reason Hillary didn’t find it convenient to come out and say so, perhaps because he’s checking to make sure Beans isn’t going to report him for fueling his office hours with gin conveyed via Sprite can. Instead of providing any sort of usable feedback, Hillary launched into one of his down-home routines about how he, Hillary, is but a poetry simpleton who can’t get beyond the basic themes of love and death and war. Hillary went off on a tear about the finesse of Frost, the aplomb of Lowell, the swagger of Berryman. He told Beans he just wished he could tune into that erudite postmodern frequency Beans has locked as the permanent station on his “poem radio.” That was literally, no joke, Hillary’s metaphor. Poem radio.

Hillary owns a ranch in Colorado and knows how to ride a horse and shoot a gun. But everyone knows that Don Hillary hails from a wealthy Connecticut clan and was a legacy at Princeton, like both his grandfather and father, pioneering psychiatrists. People will, as they say, talk. And while it’s not entirely clear how the heavy drinking fits in with the true-blue cowboy routine, whether the former excuses the latter or it’s the other way around, any kind of proximity to Hillary’s person will let you know that he is either slowly embalming himself as a source of obdurate patrician fun or is unaware that suicide is best accomplished by more direct means.

Because Marta Hillary and Donald Hillary, as everyone knows, have gone well beyond being on the rocks. To further mix the metaphor, they’re straight out of the bottle, paper-bagging it. Or, at least, they would be, if Marta hadn’t so clearly moved on. As things stand, these days only Don seems to indulge on the job.

There is speculation among the students about what will happen to the poetry program if their marriage collapses this academic year, in medias res, for example. Would one of them leave town? Who would take the hatchet?