now he’s being loud/heavy with the feet. stomping on purpose.

8:15–9pm: main events:

Heard tv go off and him sit next to me

Talked about moving logistics

He said Sunday is our last day here

Looked at 1975 calendar wall hanging, two tears

‘Sunday’

Would move things Thursday

I was stupid for not knowing if he meant we should pack mon tues weds

Said I don’t know I didn’t plan, how could he expect me to know what he was thinking

Said it was better for me to just go

At some point referenced my period not being here yet

He said ‘unless there’s…one of our little friends’

Unclear if he meant I was pregnant by someone else, ‘a friend,’ or that I had another ‘friend’ in me like I had before

Dressed, feeling bad

‘I’m just going to go back to Maryland, it’ll be better, I have a printer there’

Asked me to jump over bed to ‘show me you’re a gug gug’

Better to be away when I’m like this, sensitive, before my period

He said ‘oh come on don’t you just want to be nice’ and I said ‘yeah, that’s why I’m leaving’

At some point I was laying on top of him and crying and he said ‘look at you with your quarter-sized nose holes and your silver dollar eyes. They don’t make silver dollars much anymore’

‘I want someone to say mean things to me’

I said ‘I don’t want to do that,’ then ‘well okay I think you can act insensitive when you’re drunk’

He immediately made excuse/seemed to want to argue

‘I don’t want to do that’

Corrected me about how I said he got girl’s phone number IMPORTANT: HE GAVE HER HIS PHONE NUMBER, DID NOT ASK FOR HERS, I MISREMEMBERED that and number of people in car, he said I was exaggerating, I said no I want to be accurate and maybe idea of picking up the mom made me feel like six ppl in five person car, he rolled his eyes and said ‘well it certainly makes you seem [something about thinking I was trying to garner sympathy/make him look bad]’

I said ‘I want to hear factual corrections, is there anything else like that, like, factually’

I was sitting on top of him

I said ‘are there other factual things?’

I said ‘it’s actually funnier, I forgot you gave her your phone number, so and like, in your line of thinking that makes you look worse or whatever, like in your line of thinking what actually happened would be the thing I’d lie about, to make you look worse’

He said ‘oh and let’s not forget about good writing, being honest, how it’s actually better writing to not manipulate the audience’ (IMPORTANT: HE DID NOT SAY THE WORD ‘MANIPULATE,’ I DON’T REMEMBER WHAT HE SAID EXACTLY, ‘MUSN’T MISREPRESENT HIM’)

I said ‘fuck this don’t talk to me about better writing, fycj this shit I don’t want to hear this from you again’